Ash's Joys

Do I?

I really wonder. Can't help that some things don't seem to get any better. Things come and go, but whatever it is just seems stuck here all the time.

Not gonna elaborate.

Have to head back to camp soon... one whole day of crapping around already. Can't even go for my grandma's b'day dinner. It's just plain dumb.

Have I had enough?

I really don't know at all. It's just weird thinking about certain things. When you consider things from one angle, to another angle, to yet another angle, the perspectives just change, and things just end up becoming more complicated.

What can I do?

Don't really know the answer to that too. I guess I'll just leave it all to God then. Hopefully I'll get an answer soon. Sometimes, the process really causes you to suffer a lot, when you keep waiting, waiting, waiting... But that's life, isn't it?

I'm looking ahead?

There's yet another 2 more weeks to the end of my training. Can't imagine that I've actually gone through 6 weeks already. But the tough part's just beginning. There are still many more things that have to be done, and the focus is now on these last 2 weeks. 2 weeks. All I have to make good my time in Stagmont. Have to hit the "books" once again.

What's in store for me?

Yet another "Don't know..." The future is just there, but I just don't know what's ahead for me. Yeah, everyone hopes for good things to keep coming their way, but I expect some bad things to happen as well. A life without balances is not a life at all.

I really, really, really hope that I'll get an answer...

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Thinking.