Ash's Joys

We are fortunate to have the gift of sight, but sometimes we just don't focus on the important things in our lives, especially the people.

Hope this song would spread this message to everyone out there.

Enjoy.

If I Had Eyes - Jack Johnson, Sleep Through the Static

If I had eyes in the back of my head,
I would’ve told you that you look good as I walked away.
If you could’ve tried to trust the hand that fed,
You would’ve never been hungry but you’d never really be.
More of this or less of this or is there any difference
Or are we are we just holdin on to things that we don’t have anymore.

Sometimes time doesn’t heal, no, not at all.
Just stands still, while we fall
In or out of love again
I doubt I’m gonna win you back
when you’ve got eyes like that
they won’t let me in.

Always lookin out.
Ooooh ooh ohooh

A lot of people spent their time just floating
We were victims together but lonely
You’ve got hungry eyes they just cant look forward
Cant give them enough but we just cant start over
Building with thin nails
We’re falling but holding
I don’t wanna take up anymore of your time

Time time time sometimes

Time doesn’t heal, no, not at all.
Just stands still, while we fall
In or out of love again
I doubt I’m gonna win you back
When you’ve got eyes like that
They wont let me in

Always looking out.
Oooh oohhhoo ooh
Always lookin
Ohoohoooo
Always lookin … out.
Ooohooohooo
Always lookin … out…

Head under water
And you tell me
To breathe easy for awhile
The breathing gets harder
Even I know that
Made room for me
It's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well but you make this hard on me

I'm not gonna write you a love song
Cause you ask for it
Cause you need one You see,
I'm not gonna write you a long song
Cause you tell me it's make or breakin' this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leavin'
I'm gonna need a better reason

To write you a love song
Today
Today..

I learnt the hard way
That they all say
Things you wanna hear
My heavy heart sinks deep down under
You and Your twisted words
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry

Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

I'm not gonna write you a love song
Cause you asked for it
Cause you need one You see,
I'm not gonna write you a love song
Cause you tell me it's make or breakin' this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leavin'
I'm gonna need a better reason
To write you a love song today

Promise me
You'll leave the light on
To help me see
The daylight my ??? (dunno what word)
Cause I believe
There's a way
You can love me
Because I say

I won't write you a love song
Cause you ask for it
Cause you need one You see,
I'm not gonna write you a love song
Cause you tell me it's make or breakin' this
Is that why you wanted a love song?
Cause you asked for it
Cause you need one
You see I'm not gonna write you a love song
Cause you tell me it's make or breakin this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If your heart is nowhere in it
I don't want it for a minute Babe,
I walk the seven seas
When I believe that there's a reason to write you a love song
Today.
Today..

Ash is back and blogging for at least the next 10 hours. At least... and 7 will be spent sleeping, 1 will be spent preparing.

Effectively, I''m left with 2 hours.

Well, life has been going on still, and it's only another 2 more weeks before POC wahahahaha. Then its off to my unit.

Life is boring also.

There are so many things that I want to say and want to do. Just can't seem to locate the correct time to do so... Hahas. Ash is just one big confused dude.

I don't know whether I heard something. But I certainly hope I really heard it.

I'm telling myself 3 things: Patience, Perfection, Power.



Ever heard the story about the butterfly?

"A man found a cocoon of a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared. He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through that little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it had and it could go no further.

Then the man decided to help the butterfly, so he took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon. The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings. The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time.

Neither happened! In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly.

What the man in his kindness and haste did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening were God's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon.

Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If God allowed us to go through our life without any obstacles, it would cripple us. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. And we could never fly."


It's so true that obstacles are part of our lives. Sometimes we need others to give us a push to continue forging ahead. But when we become overly dependent and make them push us harder, we will definitely fall. The harder the push, the greater the fall. What we just need is that tap of encouragement from someone else.

Believe.

It's Valentine's Day today and I'm stuck at home. Got excused for the next few days...

Wonder how is it that I always tell myself to remain positive despite the circumstances, but it just can't happen...

Sometimes, when you do things, you kinda think back and wonder about whether you have done your best or not. And frankly speaking, I get that sinking feeling sometimes.

The thing is... I've definitely got loads of time on my side now, but most of the time is wasted doing nothing, for a few reasons actually, the main reason being that I cannot do anything. I know it sounds weird, but trust me, when I tell you my story, you will understand.

I really don't want to reveal too much now. It's a tad too early a stage to do so. I just hope that somehow or other, people will come to understand my circumstances, and I too, hope and pray that I'll be able to understand theirs as well.

I'm really thankful to those out there who lend me a listening ear. I really owe you guys loads. There are so many things that I can't seem to tell others easily, but with you, it's easy. BECAUSE YOU UNDERSTAND.

I just have to keep focussing on my goals, and when I stray out of line, remedy the situation immediately. I keep my faith in the Lord, and also in my Bible, which has been a great blessing to me these past few weeks.

Sometimes I wonder, have I done enough?

What's most important, I guess, is focussing on my priorities in life. Basically, my faith and trust in the Lord, and also the important people around me.

Just remember this. Having to care for others is not a burden. It's a privilege you get, because the person you care for is special, and you yourself are SPECIAL too, in the eyes of those you care for.

Be someone who cares. And just know that you'll always be that special someone.

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:)

I'm blessed.

Thank you so much.

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Very, very thankful.

One of the best timepieces ever composed and sung.


Wonderful Tonight - Eric Clapton


It's late in the evening
She's wondering what clothes to wear
She puts on her makeup
And brushes her long blonde hair
And then she asks me
Do I look all right
And I say yes, you look wonderful tonight.

We go a party
And everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady
That's walking around with me
And then she asks me
Do you feel all right
And I say yes, I feel wonderful tonight.

I feel wonderful
Because I see the love light in your eyes
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize
How much I love you.

It's time to go home now
And I've got an aching head
So I give her the car keys
She helps me to bed
And then I tell her
As I turn out the light
I say my darling, you were wonderful tonight
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight.

Finally have some time to myself...

Has been a great past few days outside in the "civilian world" as the army puts it... Wonder how it is like that 2.5 days have already gone by since I reached home. Time really flies... Didn't expect to be home so soon just after the 1st 2 weeks of confinement, or as the army puts it again, "adjustment" period.

I have been rotting in camp. When you have 6 hour breaks, and you can't do anything, isn't it rotting?

CNY is here. So quickly also, and the next few days are just gonna pass by like a blur until I have to book into camp on Sunday. 5.30pm. Sucks right? Can't spend too much time out either. Can't help it. Sigh.

Just really taking time to appreciate the things around me now, and taking time off to enjoy the surroundings. Staying in camp really makes you think a lot, no matter what you do. Sometimes, that odd feeling or sensation just gets to you and somehow, you find yourself not feeling too good about being there, then.

Well, to keep spirits high though, I guess this year has been a great year, considering many cousins got married last year, a.k.a. MORE ANGPOWS LA! Haha.

And to those disgusting people who keep looking at me with that look (*hint hint, I want Angpow from you*), dream on for now, and wait for perhaps another 6-8 years? Not sure. WAHAHAHA!!!

Seriously, take time off to smell the roses. Unless you're asthmatic, then DON'T. I don't wanna be the cause of an attack.

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Smiling.

I'll soar above the clouds like an eagle.

I just can't seem to stop feeling tired... seems like my internal clock isn't working too well already... What can I do when I have 2230 nights and 0515 mornings? And a whole day of work, work, work. Sigh.

And Happy CNY to everyone out there.

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Zzz.

Ash is back and ready to rumble till Sunday. DUH!!!

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Woot.