A new beginning
Moving to ash-footprints.blogspot.com
Hi there again.
I realised that it's been a long long time since my last post.
Don't really have anything much to post... LOL. Most of the stuff and pics just end up on facebook.
I'm practically living on facebook whenever I'm in camp, and of course, eBuddy.com ;)
Its July already and I have another 7 more months to go before end of army :D:D:D Just hope that the things that will come will fall into place gradually and I can continue with my life.
Seems like its always us against the forces of the world, pushing and pulling us in different directions. But I believe that as long as we make the most of the little we have, life would still be meaningful, and something will happen, that will make us all feel better.
Have had some thoughts recently, but still am trying to sort them out properly before I start posting about them. Catch y'all soon!
Don't really have anything much to post... LOL. Most of the stuff and pics just end up on facebook.
I'm practically living on facebook whenever I'm in camp, and of course, eBuddy.com ;)
Its July already and I have another 7 more months to go before end of army :D:D:D Just hope that the things that will come will fall into place gradually and I can continue with my life.
Seems like its always us against the forces of the world, pushing and pulling us in different directions. But I believe that as long as we make the most of the little we have, life would still be meaningful, and something will happen, that will make us all feel better.
Have had some thoughts recently, but still am trying to sort them out properly before I start posting about them. Catch y'all soon!
It's a jigsaw world.
Looking back...
There are so many things to laugh about.
So many things to cry about.
So many things to think about.
So many things to talk about...
I'm glad for the lessons that I've learnt over the past few years. Even though things might not have changed much as things generally just fall back into a state of peace.
Even though the calm comes after a storm, there always has to be...
someone to pick up the pieces of that have fallen down...
someone to repair the pieces that have broken off...
someone to rebuild the pieces that have collapsed...
someone to replace the pieces that have gone missing...
I'm still searching for the missing bits of my life, and hopefully, some day before I move on, I'd be able to find these pieces that will complete the jigsaw puzzle of my life.
It's not an easy jigsaw though, as the pieces do not come like those that we buy off the shelf. Rather, when we got it, the box (us) was empty, and the pieces (the parts of our lives that have made it what it is today) have come by us over time.
Some of these pieces have come to us, smoothed out (the things that have went by smoothly for us). These were the easy parts of our lives, the things that fell into place without problems, and the things that were provided for us by others.
Other pieces came to us with rough edges... the things that required a bit of effort going through them. They might have been things that required a bit of effort to go through, maybe some persuasion to and convincing others on our part to gain something, which involved some sort of mini-lesson that we had to go through in order to achieve or attain certain things.
Then came the pieces that didn't fit... the things that seemed completely out of place, and required much effort on our part to mould that piece, to make it fit in. These were the things that have created bigger problems for us, as we had to make critical decisions in order to accomplish a task; some things that had caused us to go through a longer process of thinking and decision-making. But as we moved with the flow, and changed accordingly to fit into the plans, the pieces were also moulded accordingly, and fell into place over time.
Then, the tiny bits... things that were insignificant, and we clustered them altogether until in all, they created a presence, and we fit them in, just right. Otherwise, we would find some of them actually being important over time, and those pieces grew to fit in.
The large pieces also, those that we created a big hoo-ha over, but were actually nothing much to consider at all. These also gradually fell into place as the excess baggage were trimmed off.
The hard parts now... the pieces that came with jagged edges, which cut into our lives, causing pain and destruction to everything in their path. However, these were the pieces that gave us the greatest lessons. As we shed our blood with each piece that came, we learnt from the pain... and we changed accordingly. And that was enough to shave off those jagged edges, smoothing them once again. Remember, that when the night is the darkest, it means that soon the day will break. Press on!
The pieces that never did fit in... they were the wrong decisions we made... the things that should have never started in the first place... but when we realised our mistake, and moved in a different path altogether, these pieces still wouldn't fit into the jigsaw, so they slowly faded away.
After all the pieces have been fit in, there will always still be empty spaces in it, as these are the things that have yet to come our way... but don't worry too much, for they will come soon, and will most probably come in one of the forms above...
Maybe when we've reached the peak of our lives, that the jigsaw will be complete...
But, we'll still see many other pieces coming after that, and slowly, but surely, they will expand the borders of the jigsaw...
After all, that's what life is isn't it? A neverending and exciting journey with no boundaries...
--
"Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars" - Les Brown
"Some men see things as they are and say, "Why?" I dream of things that never were and say, "Why not?" - George Bernard Shaw
There are so many things to laugh about.
So many things to cry about.
So many things to think about.
So many things to talk about...
I'm glad for the lessons that I've learnt over the past few years. Even though things might not have changed much as things generally just fall back into a state of peace.
Even though the calm comes after a storm, there always has to be...
someone to pick up the pieces of that have fallen down...
someone to repair the pieces that have broken off...
someone to rebuild the pieces that have collapsed...
someone to replace the pieces that have gone missing...
I'm still searching for the missing bits of my life, and hopefully, some day before I move on, I'd be able to find these pieces that will complete the jigsaw puzzle of my life.
It's not an easy jigsaw though, as the pieces do not come like those that we buy off the shelf. Rather, when we got it, the box (us) was empty, and the pieces (the parts of our lives that have made it what it is today) have come by us over time.
Some of these pieces have come to us, smoothed out (the things that have went by smoothly for us). These were the easy parts of our lives, the things that fell into place without problems, and the things that were provided for us by others.
Other pieces came to us with rough edges... the things that required a bit of effort going through them. They might have been things that required a bit of effort to go through, maybe some persuasion to and convincing others on our part to gain something, which involved some sort of mini-lesson that we had to go through in order to achieve or attain certain things.
Then came the pieces that didn't fit... the things that seemed completely out of place, and required much effort on our part to mould that piece, to make it fit in. These were the things that have created bigger problems for us, as we had to make critical decisions in order to accomplish a task; some things that had caused us to go through a longer process of thinking and decision-making. But as we moved with the flow, and changed accordingly to fit into the plans, the pieces were also moulded accordingly, and fell into place over time.
Then, the tiny bits... things that were insignificant, and we clustered them altogether until in all, they created a presence, and we fit them in, just right. Otherwise, we would find some of them actually being important over time, and those pieces grew to fit in.
The large pieces also, those that we created a big hoo-ha over, but were actually nothing much to consider at all. These also gradually fell into place as the excess baggage were trimmed off.
The hard parts now... the pieces that came with jagged edges, which cut into our lives, causing pain and destruction to everything in their path. However, these were the pieces that gave us the greatest lessons. As we shed our blood with each piece that came, we learnt from the pain... and we changed accordingly. And that was enough to shave off those jagged edges, smoothing them once again. Remember, that when the night is the darkest, it means that soon the day will break. Press on!
The pieces that never did fit in... they were the wrong decisions we made... the things that should have never started in the first place... but when we realised our mistake, and moved in a different path altogether, these pieces still wouldn't fit into the jigsaw, so they slowly faded away.
After all the pieces have been fit in, there will always still be empty spaces in it, as these are the things that have yet to come our way... but don't worry too much, for they will come soon, and will most probably come in one of the forms above...
Maybe when we've reached the peak of our lives, that the jigsaw will be complete...
But, we'll still see many other pieces coming after that, and slowly, but surely, they will expand the borders of the jigsaw...
After all, that's what life is isn't it? A neverending and exciting journey with no boundaries...
--
"Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars" - Les Brown
"Some men see things as they are and say, "Why?" I dream of things that never were and say, "Why not?" - George Bernard Shaw
Perfect.
I don't want to be a perfect person, for I'd be unable to improve myself any further.
But, even though I am an imperfect person, I want to always be imperfectly beautiful.
But, even though I am an imperfect person, I want to always be imperfectly beautiful.
...
I question myself once again...
Thing is, I can't really say how 2009 has been so far for me. Yeah, I know and realise that it's April already... but the problem is that there has already been a whole lot of things that occurred, or just suddenly got thrown into the picture, and it's kinda overwhelming. At least that's what I feel.
On the brighter side, things have really sped up after all. Really looking forward for the end of the next 10 months... then perhaps... liberation from green? Ha. But either way, it's still a process that we (guys) go through and as such, it's not really up to me to decide for everyone how the journey has been, even though we have our tendencies to say some things, do some things... Hmmm.
Have been in good spirits recently, though its hurting the pockets a little. Time to find new ways of entertainment and enjoyment at reduced cost! Think that everyone's gonna need a mindset change about what we have right now... not to take everything for granted and not to over-commit ourselves towards things that we might not have to ability to sustain.
Btw, CG just multiplied and I'm still with Sharon :D but now as W515 instead of W146. So yep, a new CG, new people, a brand new mindset, and a new beginning :)
"Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see the beauty, believe in them and try to follow where they lead."
- Louisa May Alcott
Thing is, I can't really say how 2009 has been so far for me. Yeah, I know and realise that it's April already... but the problem is that there has already been a whole lot of things that occurred, or just suddenly got thrown into the picture, and it's kinda overwhelming. At least that's what I feel.
On the brighter side, things have really sped up after all. Really looking forward for the end of the next 10 months... then perhaps... liberation from green? Ha. But either way, it's still a process that we (guys) go through and as such, it's not really up to me to decide for everyone how the journey has been, even though we have our tendencies to say some things, do some things... Hmmm.
Have been in good spirits recently, though its hurting the pockets a little. Time to find new ways of entertainment and enjoyment at reduced cost! Think that everyone's gonna need a mindset change about what we have right now... not to take everything for granted and not to over-commit ourselves towards things that we might not have to ability to sustain.
Btw, CG just multiplied and I'm still with Sharon :D but now as W515 instead of W146. So yep, a new CG, new people, a brand new mindset, and a new beginning :)
"Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see the beauty, believe in them and try to follow where they lead."
- Louisa May Alcott
Dishwalla - Angels or Devils
This is the last time
That I'm ever gonna come here tonight
This is the last time - I will fall
Into a place that fails us all - inside
Well I can see the pain in you
And I can see the love in you
But fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time
The angels they burn inside for us
Are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
Are we ever gonna come back down
Come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
This is the last time
That I'm ever gonna give in tonight
Are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see
Stilll I can see the pain in you
And I can see the love in you
And fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time
The angels they burn inside for us
Are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
Are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us
If I was to give in - give it up
- And then
Take a breath - make it deep
Cause it might be the last one you get
Be the last one
That could make us cold
You know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
That I'm ever gonna come here tonight
This is the last time - I will fall
Into a place that fails us all - inside
Well I can see the pain in you
And I can see the love in you
But fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time
The angels they burn inside for us
Are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
Are we ever gonna come back down
Come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
This is the last time
That I'm ever gonna give in tonight
Are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see
Stilll I can see the pain in you
And I can see the love in you
And fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time
The angels they burn inside for us
Are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
Are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us
If I was to give in - give it up
- And then
Take a breath - make it deep
Cause it might be the last one you get
Be the last one
That could make us cold
You know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
Food, for thought.
I'm now craving for crabs.
So many things have happened just in the last few weeks... really don't know where and when to start. Just wanna say that in the end, life still has to go on as normal, and there are so many other things to look forward to in the near future.
I mean, a quarter of 2009 has almost past and I really wonder where I stand now, in this year of 2009... I really hope that SMU would offer me the opportunity to study there, and thus, allow me to move forward with the plans that I have... Problem is, I guess the past still haunts me... the things that I could and couldn't have done, the things that I should and shouldn't have done... I definitely can't erase them now... they're part of my history I guess.
And I think that they should stay there, where they belong... history, over...
I think that even if I was given the chance to go back in time to change parts of them, I wouldn't change anything drastically... for each of those incidents that have come have shaped my life to be what it is today,
And that, is what I love about it.
So many things have happened just in the last few weeks... really don't know where and when to start. Just wanna say that in the end, life still has to go on as normal, and there are so many other things to look forward to in the near future.
I mean, a quarter of 2009 has almost past and I really wonder where I stand now, in this year of 2009... I really hope that SMU would offer me the opportunity to study there, and thus, allow me to move forward with the plans that I have... Problem is, I guess the past still haunts me... the things that I could and couldn't have done, the things that I should and shouldn't have done... I definitely can't erase them now... they're part of my history I guess.
And I think that they should stay there, where they belong... history, over...
I think that even if I was given the chance to go back in time to change parts of them, I wouldn't change anything drastically... for each of those incidents that have come have shaped my life to be what it is today,
And that, is what I love about it.
:D
A day of food and fun under $40
Breakfast @ Coffee Bean: $7.80 (for a cinnamon and apple muffin and a regular iced vanilla latte... didn't know they had this combo, it just rocks.)
Lunch @ Pizza Hut: $6.50 (for sharing 2 pizzas and etc.)
Movie @ GV: $6.50 (okay I cheated, so what?)
Window shopping @ town: $0 (what can I say? :D)
Dinner @ Central: $10 (indulgence at a low price)
Pool @ Toa Payoh: $3 (surprisingly good late-night entertainment)
Total Cost: $33.80
Time Spent: 15 hours (9am - 12am)
At just over $2/hour, its worth it.
Finally,
Quality time spent with friends: PRICELESS.
Breakfast @ Coffee Bean: $7.80 (for a cinnamon and apple muffin and a regular iced vanilla latte... didn't know they had this combo, it just rocks.)
Lunch @ Pizza Hut: $6.50 (for sharing 2 pizzas and etc.)
Movie @ GV: $6.50 (okay I cheated, so what?)
Window shopping @ town: $0 (what can I say? :D)
Dinner @ Central: $10 (indulgence at a low price)
Pool @ Toa Payoh: $3 (surprisingly good late-night entertainment)
Total Cost: $33.80
Time Spent: 15 hours (9am - 12am)
At just over $2/hour, its worth it.
Finally,
Quality time spent with friends: PRICELESS.
Unwind.
Finally managed to have time to unwind... Had a great time really.
Didn't expect myself to be there for so long either. Wanna thank them all for the time.
:)
Feeling so much better now, considering that I have been sick the past few days. Some dumb flu bug I guess... worse still, cough + sore throat at the same time...
Its good now, except my lips are seriously dry and cracked, and I lost my lip balm :(
Oh well, I guess I'll write more another time... one more busy day tomorrow.
Didn't expect myself to be there for so long either. Wanna thank them all for the time.
:)
Feeling so much better now, considering that I have been sick the past few days. Some dumb flu bug I guess... worse still, cough + sore throat at the same time...
Its good now, except my lips are seriously dry and cracked, and I lost my lip balm :(
Oh well, I guess I'll write more another time... one more busy day tomorrow.
Loss.
Think the next few weeks are going to feel very different...
Sometimes I wonder whether I've done enough, whether I've got to know him as he is...
But it's all over now I guess... whatever he knows and I don't, he's brought with him.
89 years of glory. 7 children, 16 grandchildren and 3 great-grandchildren.
His legacy.
We'll miss you.
Sometimes I wonder whether I've done enough, whether I've got to know him as he is...
But it's all over now I guess... whatever he knows and I don't, he's brought with him.
89 years of glory. 7 children, 16 grandchildren and 3 great-grandchildren.
His legacy.
We'll miss you.
Finally.
FINALLY GOT MY LICENSE AFTER 6 MONTHS (okay i spent 3.5 months waiting for my TP test), and spending $888.40. HOHOHO!
I'M LOVING IT!
I'M LOVING IT!
Enigma - Return to Innocence
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence.
Love - devotion
Feeling - emotion
Love - devotion
Feeling - emotion
Dont be afraid to be weak
Dont be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence
.
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence
.
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence
.
Don't care what people say
Follow just your own way
Follow just your own way
Don't give up, don't give up
To return, to return to innocence.
If you want then laugh
If you must then cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence.
Love - devotion
Feeling - emotion
Love - devotion
Feeling - emotion
Dont be afraid to be weak
Dont be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence
.
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence
.
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence
.
Don't care what people say
Follow just your own way
Follow just your own way
Don't give up, don't give up
To return, to return to innocence.
If you want then laugh
If you must then cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.
Valentine's Day.
Sometimes I've been looking for someone...
Then I find her, only to lose her,
And then I start searching again.
But I know, that she'd always be watching over me.
When you were near, I was overwhelmed by your presence,
You filled the emptiness in my heart,
When you went far away, out of sight, out of reach,
I felt lost, I got scared, I didn't know what to do.
I remember those days,
The days we spent sitting under that great oak tree,
The nights we spent gazing at the stars above,
Those were wonderful times... beautiful smiles and joy.
We were young and immature then,
We embarrassed ourselves in many situations,
But then we grew, and we matured over time,
But as our understanding of things increased, so did our love.
Our dreams were intertwined,
The things we did were in perfect unison,
We knew that it would all be fine in the end,
And our hopes were floating... floating...
There were times of tears and times of laughter,
When the hard times seemed to bring the whole world crashing down,
But nothing could bring either of us down,
All we needed was each other.
Our love will always be as strong as the mountains,
It will always be gentle as the breeze, as graceful as swans,
Everything we did together was unforgettable,
As nothing can take your place in my heart.
The memories have been engraved in my heart,
Even if I had a choice to change one thing in life,
I wouldn't and couldn't change anything,
For YOU make it perfect.
--
Even though I personally feel that Valentine's Day is kinda overrated at times, there's no harm in making your girl feel special today. Just like we have Father's and Mother's Day, why not let it be a day which we celebrate with the loves of our lives.
Just remember that it is not limited to this day alone, but each and every day.
Make it special for her.
Happy Valentine's Day.
:)
Then I find her, only to lose her,
And then I start searching again.
But I know, that she'd always be watching over me.
When you were near, I was overwhelmed by your presence,
You filled the emptiness in my heart,
When you went far away, out of sight, out of reach,
I felt lost, I got scared, I didn't know what to do.
I remember those days,
The days we spent sitting under that great oak tree,
The nights we spent gazing at the stars above,
Those were wonderful times... beautiful smiles and joy.
We were young and immature then,
We embarrassed ourselves in many situations,
But then we grew, and we matured over time,
But as our understanding of things increased, so did our love.
Our dreams were intertwined,
The things we did were in perfect unison,
We knew that it would all be fine in the end,
And our hopes were floating... floating...
There were times of tears and times of laughter,
When the hard times seemed to bring the whole world crashing down,
But nothing could bring either of us down,
All we needed was each other.
Our love will always be as strong as the mountains,
It will always be gentle as the breeze, as graceful as swans,
Everything we did together was unforgettable,
As nothing can take your place in my heart.
The memories have been engraved in my heart,
Even if I had a choice to change one thing in life,
I wouldn't and couldn't change anything,
For YOU make it perfect.
--
Even though I personally feel that Valentine's Day is kinda overrated at times, there's no harm in making your girl feel special today. Just like we have Father's and Mother's Day, why not let it be a day which we celebrate with the loves of our lives.
Just remember that it is not limited to this day alone, but each and every day.
Make it special for her.
Happy Valentine's Day.
:)
Our Song
Taylor Swift - Our Song
I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel
The other on my heart
I look around, turn the radio down
He says, "Baby is something wrong?"
I say, "Nothing I was just thinking
How we don't have a song" and he says
Our song is the slamming screen door
Sneakin' out late, tappin' on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date man, I didn't kiss her and I should have
And when I got home, 'fore I said Amen
Asking God if He could play it again
I was walking up the front porch steps
After everything that day
Had gone all wrong or been trampled on
And lost and thrown away
Got to the hallway, well, on my way
To my lovin' bed
I almost didn't notice all the roses
And the note that said
Our song is the slamming screen door
Sneakin' out late, tappin' on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date man, I didn't kiss her and I should have
And when I got home, 'fore I said Amen
Asking God if He could play it again
I've heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song
'Cause our song is the slamming screen door
Sneakin' out late, tapping on his window
When we're on the phone and he talks real slow
'Cause it's late and his mama don't know
Our song is the way he laughs
The first date man, I didn't kiss him and I should have
And when I got home, 'fore I said amen
Asking God if He could play it again
Play it again, oh, yeah, oh, oh, yeah
I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
And I wrote down our song
I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel
The other on my heart
I look around, turn the radio down
He says, "Baby is something wrong?"
I say, "Nothing I was just thinking
How we don't have a song" and he says
Our song is the slamming screen door
Sneakin' out late, tappin' on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date man, I didn't kiss her and I should have
And when I got home, 'fore I said Amen
Asking God if He could play it again
I was walking up the front porch steps
After everything that day
Had gone all wrong or been trampled on
And lost and thrown away
Got to the hallway, well, on my way
To my lovin' bed
I almost didn't notice all the roses
And the note that said
Our song is the slamming screen door
Sneakin' out late, tappin' on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date man, I didn't kiss her and I should have
And when I got home, 'fore I said Amen
Asking God if He could play it again
I've heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song
'Cause our song is the slamming screen door
Sneakin' out late, tapping on his window
When we're on the phone and he talks real slow
'Cause it's late and his mama don't know
Our song is the way he laughs
The first date man, I didn't kiss him and I should have
And when I got home, 'fore I said amen
Asking God if He could play it again
Play it again, oh, yeah, oh, oh, yeah
I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
And I wrote down our song
Essay
I've been writing and re-writing, editing and re-editing for at least 7 times already. I'm taking no chances on this at all. Not gonna lose this good chance in front of me anymore.
I'm full of hope now!
-Hope for a good future!
-Hope for myself getting into SMU. It's a tough journey, but I'm trying my best to survive through it.
-Hope I don't get disappointed again.
-Hope that more doors will open for me!
-Hope and more hope!
Haha.
Just finished my last edit (not final), and sent it for vetting... well, I think I got carried away and wrote too much!? Exceeded the 300-word limit by 96. Which would make an eternity of editing considering that its 33% more work that I have to remove. Woo.....
I'm full of hope now!
-Hope for a good future!
-Hope for myself getting into SMU. It's a tough journey, but I'm trying my best to survive through it.
-Hope I don't get disappointed again.
-Hope that more doors will open for me!
-Hope and more hope!
Haha.
Just finished my last edit (not final), and sent it for vetting... well, I think I got carried away and wrote too much!? Exceeded the 300-word limit by 96. Which would make an eternity of editing considering that its 33% more work that I have to remove. Woo.....
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