Ash's Joys

A new beginning

2009-09-26T09:55:00.001+08:00

Moving to ash-footprints.blogspot.com

Hi there again.

2009-07-06T23:24:00.002+08:00

I realised that it's been a long long time since my last post.

Don't really have anything much to post... LOL. Most of the stuff and pics just end up on facebook.
I'm practically living on facebook whenever I'm in camp, and of course, eBuddy.com ;)

Its July already and I have another 7 more months to go before end of army :D:D:D Just hope that the things that will come will fall into place gradually and I can continue with my life.

Seems like its always us against the forces of the world, pushing and pulling us in different directions. But I believe that as long as we make the most of the little we have, life would still be meaningful, and something will happen, that will make us all feel better.

Have had some thoughts recently, but still am trying to sort them out properly before I start posting about them. Catch y'all soon!

Japan

2009-06-04T23:11:00.001+08:00

People.

2009-05-11T00:33:00.002+08:00

Different people.
Different personalities.
One purpose.

It's a jigsaw world.

2009-04-13T23:51:00.004+08:00

Looking back...

There are so many things to laugh about.
So many things to cry about.
So many things to think about.
So many things to talk about...

I'm glad for the lessons that I've learnt over the past few years. Even though things might not have changed much as things generally just fall back into a state of peace.

Even though the calm comes after a storm, there always has to be...
someone to pick up the pieces of that have fallen down...
someone to repair the pieces that have broken off...
someone to rebuild the pieces that have collapsed...
someone to replace the pieces that have gone missing...

I'm still searching for the missing bits of my life, and hopefully, some day before I move on, I'd be able to find these pieces that will complete the jigsaw puzzle of my life.

It's not an easy jigsaw though, as the pieces do not come like those that we buy off the shelf. Rather, when we got it, the box (us) was empty, and the pieces (the parts of our lives that have made it what it is today) have come by us over time.

Some of these pieces have come to us, smoothed out (the things that have went by smoothly for us). These were the easy parts of our lives, the things that fell into place without problems, and the things that were provided for us by others.

Other pieces came to us with rough edges... the things that required a bit of effort going through them. They might have been things that required a bit of effort to go through, maybe some persuasion to and convincing others on our part to gain something, which involved some sort of mini-lesson that we had to go through in order to achieve or attain certain things.

Then came the pieces that didn't fit... the things that seemed completely out of place, and required much effort on our part to mould that piece, to make it fit in. These were the things that have created bigger problems for us, as we had to make critical decisions in order to accomplish a task; some things that had caused us to go through a longer process of thinking and decision-making. But as we moved with the flow, and changed accordingly to fit into the plans, the pieces were also moulded accordingly, and fell into place over time.

Then, the tiny bits... things that were insignificant, and we clustered them altogether until in all, they created a presence, and we fit them in, just right. Otherwise, we would find some of them actually being important over time, and those pieces grew to fit in.

The large pieces also, those that we created a big hoo-ha over, but were actually nothing much to consider at all. These also gradually fell into place as the excess baggage were trimmed off.

The hard parts now... the pieces that came with jagged edges, which cut into our lives, causing pain and destruction to everything in their path. However, these were the pieces that gave us the greatest lessons. As we shed our blood with each piece that came, we learnt from the pain... and we changed accordingly. And that was enough to shave off those jagged edges, smoothing them once again. Remember, that when the night is the darkest, it means that soon the day will break. Press on!

The pieces that never did fit in... they were the wrong decisions we made... the things that should have never started in the first place... but when we realised our mistake, and moved in a different path altogether, these pieces still wouldn't fit into the jigsaw, so they slowly faded away.

After all the pieces have been fit in, there will always still be empty spaces in it, as these are the things that have yet to come our way... but don't worry too much, for they will come soon, and will most probably come in one of the forms above...

Maybe when we've reached the peak of our lives, that the jigsaw will be complete...

But, we'll still see many other pieces coming after that, and slowly, but surely, they will expand the borders of the jigsaw...

After all, that's what life is isn't it? A neverending and exciting journey with no boundaries...

--

"Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars" - Les Brown

"Some men see things as they are and say, "Why?" I dream of things that never were and say, "Why not?" - George Bernard Shaw

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2009-04-12T05:25:00.001+08:00

I hope a shooting star would fly by me.

And then I'll make a wish.

Perfect.

2009-04-09T14:19:00.003+08:00

I don't want to be a perfect person, for I'd be unable to improve myself any further.
But, even though I am an imperfect person, I want to always be imperfectly beautiful.

...

2009-04-06T21:35:00.004+08:00

I question myself once again...

Thing is, I can't really say how 2009 has been so far for me. Yeah, I know and realise that it's April already... but the problem is that there has already been a whole lot of things that occurred, or just suddenly got thrown into the picture, and it's kinda overwhelming. At least that's what I feel.

On the brighter side, things have really sped up after all. Really looking forward for the end of the next 10 months... then perhaps... liberation from green? Ha. But either way, it's still a process that we (guys) go through and as such, it's not really up to me to decide for everyone how the journey has been, even though we have our tendencies to say some things, do some things... Hmmm.

Have been in good spirits recently, though its hurting the pockets a little. Time to find new ways of entertainment and enjoyment at reduced cost! Think that everyone's gonna need a mindset change about what we have right now... not to take everything for granted and not to over-commit ourselves towards things that we might not have to ability to sustain.

Btw, CG just multiplied and I'm still with Sharon :D but now as W515 instead of W146. So yep, a new CG, new people, a brand new mindset, and a new beginning :)

"Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see the beauty, believe in them and try to follow where they lead."
- Louisa May Alcott

Dishwalla - Angels or Devils

2009-03-31T05:04:00.001+08:00

This is the last time
That I'm ever gonna come here tonight
This is the last time - I will fall
Into a place that fails us all - inside

Well I can see the pain in you
And I can see the love in you
But fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time

The angels they burn inside for us
Are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
Are we ever gonna come back down
Come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

This is the last time
That I'm ever gonna give in tonight
Are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

Stilll I can see the pain in you
And I can see the love in you
And fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time

The angels they burn inside for us
Are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
Are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

If I was to give in - give it up
- And then
Take a breath - make it deep
Cause it might be the last one you get
Be the last one
That could make us cold
You know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

Food, for thought.

2009-03-23T00:07:00.002+08:00

I'm now craving for crabs.

So many things have happened just in the last few weeks... really don't know where and when to start. Just wanna say that in the end, life still has to go on as normal, and there are so many other things to look forward to in the near future.

I mean, a quarter of 2009 has almost past and I really wonder where I stand now, in this year of 2009... I really hope that SMU would offer me the opportunity to study there, and thus, allow me to move forward with the plans that I have... Problem is, I guess the past still haunts me... the things that I could and couldn't have done, the things that I should and shouldn't have done... I definitely can't erase them now... they're part of my history I guess.

And I think that they should stay there, where they belong... history, over...

I think that even if I was given the chance to go back in time to change parts of them, I wouldn't change anything drastically... for each of those incidents that have come have shaped my life to be what it is today,

And that, is what I love about it.

:D

2009-03-21T17:53:00.002+08:00

A day of food and fun under $40

Breakfast @ Coffee Bean: $7.80 (for a cinnamon and apple muffin and a regular iced vanilla latte... didn't know they had this combo, it just rocks.)

Lunch @ Pizza Hut: $6.50 (for sharing 2 pizzas and etc.)

Movie @ GV: $6.50 (okay I cheated, so what?)

Window shopping @ town: $0 (what can I say? :D)

Dinner @ Central: $10 (indulgence at a low price)

Pool @ Toa Payoh: $3 (surprisingly good late-night entertainment)

Total Cost: $33.80
Time Spent: 15 hours (9am - 12am)

At just over $2/hour, its worth it.

Finally,
Quality time spent with friends: PRICELESS.

Unwind.

2009-03-21T00:29:00.001+08:00

Finally managed to have time to unwind... Had a great time really.
Didn't expect myself to be there for so long either. Wanna thank them all for the time.
:)

Feeling so much better now, considering that I have been sick the past few days. Some dumb flu bug I guess... worse still, cough + sore throat at the same time...

Its good now, except my lips are seriously dry and cracked, and I lost my lip balm :(

Oh well, I guess I'll write more another time... one more busy day tomorrow.

Loss.

2009-03-14T04:27:00.003+08:00

Think the next few weeks are going to feel very different...
Sometimes I wonder whether I've done enough, whether I've got to know him as he is...
But it's all over now I guess... whatever he knows and I don't, he's brought with him.

89 years of glory. 7 children, 16 grandchildren and 3 great-grandchildren.

His legacy.

We'll miss you.

Finally.

2009-03-04T01:15:00.002+08:00

FINALLY GOT MY LICENSE AFTER 6 MONTHS (okay i spent 3.5 months waiting for my TP test), and spending $888.40. HOHOHO!

I'M LOVING IT!

Enigma - Return to Innocence

2009-02-24T23:48:00.003+08:00

That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence.
Love - devotion
Feeling - emotion

Love - devotion
Feeling - emotion

Dont be afraid to be weak
Dont be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence
.

If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny

Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence
.

That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence
.

Don't care what people say
Follow just your own way
Follow just your own way
Don't give up, don't give up
To return, to return to innocence.
If you want then laugh
If you must then cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny.

Valentine's Day.

2009-02-14T04:35:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I've been looking for someone...
Then I find her, only to lose her,
And then I start searching again.
But I know, that she'd always be watching over me.

When you were near, I was overwhelmed by your presence,
You filled the emptiness in my heart,
When you went far away, out of sight, out of reach,
I felt lost, I got scared, I didn't know what to do.

I remember those days,
The days we spent sitting under that great oak tree,
The nights we spent gazing at the stars above,
Those were wonderful times... beautiful smiles and joy.

We were young and immature then,
We embarrassed ourselves in many situations,
But then we grew, and we matured over time,
But as our understanding of things increased, so did our love.

Our dreams were intertwined,
The things we did were in perfect unison,
We knew that it would all be fine in the end,
And our hopes were floating... floating...

There were times of tears and times of laughter,
When the hard times seemed to bring the whole world crashing down,
But nothing could bring either of us down,
All we needed was each other.

Our love will always be as strong as the mountains,
It will always be gentle as the breeze, as graceful as swans,
Everything we did together was unforgettable,
As nothing can take your place in my heart.

The memories have been engraved in my heart,
Even if I had a choice to change one thing in life,
I wouldn't and couldn't change anything,
For YOU make it perfect.

--

Even though I personally feel that Valentine's Day is kinda overrated at times, there's no harm in making your girl feel special today. Just like we have Father's and Mother's Day, why not let it be a day which we celebrate with the loves of our lives.

Just remember that it is not limited to this day alone, but each and every day.

Make it special for her.

Happy Valentine's Day.

:)

Recent movies.

2009-02-13T00:08:00.003+08:00

Recently watched quite a few movies...

More to be added later on.

Our Song

2009-02-12T05:49:00.002+08:00

Taylor Swift - Our Song

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel
The other on my heart

I look around, turn the radio down
He says, "Baby is something wrong?"
I say, "Nothing I was just thinking
How we don't have a song" and he says

Our song is the slamming screen door
Sneakin' out late, tappin' on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'Cause it's late and your mama don't know

Our song is the way you laugh
The first date man, I didn't kiss her and I should have
And when I got home, 'fore I said Amen
Asking God if He could play it again

I was walking up the front porch steps
After everything that day
Had gone all wrong or been trampled on
And lost and thrown away

Got to the hallway, well, on my way
To my lovin' bed
I almost didn't notice all the roses
And the note that said

Our song is the slamming screen door
Sneakin' out late, tappin' on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
'Cause it's late and your mama don't know

Our song is the way you laugh
The first date man, I didn't kiss her and I should have
And when I got home, 'fore I said Amen
Asking God if He could play it again

I've heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song

'Cause our song is the slamming screen door
Sneakin' out late, tapping on his window
When we're on the phone and he talks real slow
'Cause it's late and his mama don't know

Our song is the way he laughs
The first date man, I didn't kiss him and I should have
And when I got home, 'fore I said amen
Asking God if He could play it again

Play it again, oh, yeah, oh, oh, yeah

I was riding shotgun with my hair undone
In the front seat of his car
I grabbed a pen and an old napkin
And I wrote down our song

...

2009-02-11T02:25:00.000+08:00

I feel like I've lost a good friend...

Essay

2009-02-06T03:03:00.002+08:00

I've been writing and re-writing, editing and re-editing for at least 7 times already. I'm taking no chances on this at all. Not gonna lose this good chance in front of me anymore.

I'm full of hope now!

-Hope for a good future!
-Hope for myself getting into SMU. It's a tough journey, but I'm trying my best to survive through it.
-Hope I don't get disappointed again.
-Hope that more doors will open for me!
-Hope and more hope!

Haha.

Just finished my last edit (not final), and sent it for vetting... well, I think I got carried away and wrote too much!? Exceeded the 300-word limit by 96. Which would make an eternity of editing considering that its 33% more work that I have to remove. Woo.....

Break / Random Thots

2009-01-30T21:04:00.003+08:00

Another 17 hours to society again.

I'm quite happy that I've 8 days off. Finally a long and well-deserved break after the hectic pre-CNY weeks.

Ah... the relaxation I'm gonna have...

Right.

I guess I'll just have to accept busyness as part of my life already. Before one thing even ends, I've to embark on another. Seems that my time's always filled up to the maximum, but I guess that's how it is. A price to pay instead of having pure boredom. I'm one who can't just sit down and do nothing (although at times when I'm super tired, I do... but that's a different case altogether).

I'm a hands-on person. Meaning, that my hands gotta be on the move in order to feel that I'm actually doing something. Okay, waving my hands in the air doesn't count.

Back to plans for next week... I've gotta continue doing up my admissions procedures... the essay (UGH!?), and the admissions form. Must settle it fast.

And I can't imagine it's already February in a day's time. Oh man...

--

Why does Wile E. Coyote continue to buy ACME products when they always backfire?
If Wile E. Coyote has so much money to buy ACME products, why can't he buy his own dinner?

Reunion and Anniversary

2009-01-26T02:51:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone out there!
May it be a prosperous and fruitful year for all out there!

Oh well, this period of time also marks the anniversary of my enlistment. So yeah, 50% done. 50% more to go!! Jiayou to myself :)

More another time ba... busy busy busy.

Sometimes.

2009-01-22T01:13:00.000+08:00

Can't imagine that 3 weeks of 2009 have already past.
And I've spent the bulk of it in camp...

Sometimes I wish for time to quicken up, in times of boredom and when I'm just feeling low, but it doesn't happen then. But now I look back and realise that I'm already so far forward... not just me though, but everyone else too.

Sometimes I hope that I could turn back time... maybe change and tweak things here and there, to make life easier... to make things better now... Then I realise that not everything can be changed, and if they should ever change, then things wouldn't be what they are now. I can't predict whether change would bring about peace...or chaos... so I'll just leave it at there, since everything's just fine the way it is now.

Sometimes I want to kick myself in the head for doing stupid things which I make me regret doing them. Then again, it's all in the past already... what's lost may never be retrieved, but if I don't look ahead, then I won't be able to search on, and find the beauties that will come my way in the future. I don't think I've lived half my life yet, and I most certainly don't want it to be true; that means that I have more to look forward to, compared to looking backwards.

Sometimes I wonder why certain things happen. Expect the unexpected... for the things that happen to you most of the time are things you don't expect to happen to yourself. Thing is, just be prepared for whatever comes your way, and you'll find yourself able to handle situations more calmly. That's when you think best; with a clear mind.

Sometimes I think that I can do one thing, and the next moment, question the rationality of the things I just did. It's actually quite fun to have an internal debate over it, but I think that next time, rationality should come before action.

Sometimes I feel that everything can just go wrong... the wrong thinking, leading to the wrong decision, the wrong action, the wrong words, the wrong response, the wrong ideas, the wrong feelings, the wrong ending... but sure enough, that's where you learn... from the wrongs, to be turned into rights someday.

Sometimes, it's good to let your mind wander, think and imagine the things where you want to see youself at in a year, 3 years, 10 years. Then you work towards it.

Everytime.

We The Kings - Secret Valentine

2009-01-15T00:24:00.003+08:00

We'll write a song
That turns out the lights
When both boy and girl
Start suddenly shaking inside
Don't waste your time
Speed up your breathing
Just close your eyes
We'll hope it's not for nothing at all

Soft kiss and wine
What a pretty friend of mine
We're finally intertwined
Nervous and shy
For the moment we will come
Alive tonight

Secret valentine

We'll write a song
That turns out the lights
When both boy and girl
Start suddenly shaking inside
Don't waste your time
Speed up your breathing
Just close your eyes
We'll hope it's not for nothing at all

Lay down be still
Don't worry talk they will
I'll be loving you until
Morning's first light
Breaks tomorrow
I'll take care of you tonight

Secret valentine

We'll write a song
That turns out the lights
When both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
Don't waste your time
Speed up your breathing
Just close your eyes
We'll hope it's not for nothing at all

When guilt fills your head
Brush off rise up from the dead
This is the moment that we
Will come alive
Brace yourself for love
Sweet love, secret love

We'll write a song
That turns out the lights
When both boy and girl
Start suddenly shaking inside
Don't waste your time
Speed up your breathing
Just close your eyes
We'll hope it's not for nothing at all

We'll write a song
That turns out the lights
When both boy and girl
Start suddenly shaking inside
Don't waste your time
Speed up your breathing
Just close your eyes
We'll hope it's not for nothing at all

Nothing at all.

Indescribable.

2009-01-14T16:11:00.005+08:00

Can't describe the feeling that I have now... just a mixture of boredom, elation and expectation... Know it sounds weird... but then again... haha.

BORELATATION???

LOL.

I'm going up, up, upwards!!!

To infinity and beyond!

WOOOSH!!!

Skiing

2009-01-13T13:57:00.004+08:00

Will we EVER get to do this???

ENJOY!!

Believe

2009-01-04T12:18:00.001+08:00

You can be anyone you wanna be, just BELIEVE.

-Unknown

Poem

2009-01-03T17:26:00.007+08:00

Just some sudden inspiration... well...

The prayer - Ash

It was a peaceful and quiet night,
The sounds of nature filled the place,
Then, the lights in the attic,
Of the lone little house in the distance,
Started to flicker, and came on,

The little boy stood in the attic,
He looked out of the window, into the sky,
And he saw a lone star,
Shining brightly, radiating light,
And he said a little prayer.

"Lord, I pray with my heart,
For a star in my life,
That will shine as brightly as,
That star in the night sky."
Then, he went to bed.

He went on with life,
Tried to do his best in everything,
He gained some, he lost some,
He was just contented with all he had,
But he forgot about the prayer he made.

Twenty years later, on a peaceful night,
He looked out of the window, into the sky,
And he saw a lone star,
Shining brightly, radiating light,
Then he remembered.

And he knew that the Lord,
Had answered his prayers,
But did not provide him with just a star,
But He provided him with three,
His wife, his son and his daughter.

Tears filled his eyes,
As he thanked the Lord.
Then he looked up again,
And saw not one, but four stars,
Shining brightly, radiating light.

2009

2009-01-02T00:32:00.001+08:00

01/01/09 came and gone like a blur...

It's the 2nd of January now... gotta start working on those dreams!

Resolution

2008-12-31T00:33:00.009+08:00

Another 23 hours and 27 minutes left for 2008.

I wish this time would drag on and on and on... the feeling of a new year starting does seem somewhat overwhelming...

Cos...

2008 has brought about its fair share of joys and hurt.

The start of the year was a trying period... a period of transition into a new life in army, and also a time where things just felt unstable and shaky. Looking back, I regret doing some things that I should have waited a while more before embarking on them.

But it's time to move forward... no point looking backwards over and over again. No matter what, life has to continue. It doesn't matter whether you're happy or sad; time still passes you by... so might as well stay happy, and keep a smile on you face. People always say that compared to smiling, frowning makes use of more muscles... so, unless you're "exercising" your face, relax more, and smile :)

This year has also been a year where I've drawn a lot of blanks in my thoughts. Those times were times when I kinda didn't know what I was doing... Really glad to say that that period has already been over, and I'm moving on towards things of greater purpose.

More about army... I still can't imagine it's already 11 months in green. Almost halfway through the journey. I guess its another milestone in my life... somewhere that I can mark out as a time, or rather, a period where I feel that I've grown. Growing up in the army isn't really much different as growing up on the outside; you still mingle with people, do the usual things of each day. It's just like a routine... almost similar to everyday life... a small community of people working together towards one cause: protecting the larger community outside, preserving their lifestyles, and providing a service to the people. Except, almost everyone is a guy.

I don't think I'm gonna start thanking everyone here... cos there are just too many to thank. Not gonna drag this post and make it boring. To everyone out there who's played a part in my life, just know that you hold a special place in my heart, and I'll always remember that during times in my life, you were there to make it better. I appreciate everything that you've done for me.

Thank You.

Most importantly, I just want to take this time to thank God also, for the breakthroughs that have come my way throughout this entire year, and... for blessing me with such great family and friends.

2009 is just around the corner. I don't want to hope for a perfect year, much less perfection in anything, cos a perfect thing cannot be improved upon, and when you become "perfect", you become complacent. I also believe that there are always improvements that can be made... you just need to search for them, and make them happen. "The light gets into the dark room through the tiny crack in the wall." I hope you understand that.

Don't make the mistake of aiming for perfection, rather, aim for excellence.

Anyway, I guess it's time for the resolutions for 2009.

1. I'm working on becoming a people person... I'm going to make it a point to get to know you. The only thing is that I wonder if others will make it a point to get to know me. Hello you!

2. I'm moving ahead with my education plans. Plan early, start early, and I'll have more time to accomplish things... ahead of deadlines. SMU, SMU, SMU!!!!!

3. I wanna go for a long long trip after NS (though I think this should be resolutions 2010, since I ORD then, but who cares... I save now). France, Italy or Spain?

4. Lose weight, or rather, fats?! 5kg.

5. CGC 2009!!! YEP! (Thanks Buddy!)

6. Reaching out to friends.

7. Lastly, and IMPORTANTLY... discovering myself once again, and growing more in spirit. No more walking towards God I guess, I'm running now! Maybe sprinting... Stamina boy... stamina...

Well, I guess that's it for 2008... and yeah, I'm searching on for that special someone... but not for now... I just don't have the time to commit as of yet... so well, I'll just wait, for the right time, at the right place, for the right person.

:)

Goodbye 2008.
Hello 2009!

HAPPY!
NEW!
YEAR!

True Faith.

2008-12-30T08:41:00.005+08:00

"For the truly faithful, no miracle is necessary.
For those who doubt, no miracle is sufficient."

- Nancy Gibbs

Angels

2008-12-29T16:31:00.000+08:00

Angels - Robbie Williams

I sit and wait
does an angel
contemplate my fate
and do they know the places where we go
when we're grey and old
'cos I've been told
that salvation
lets their wings unfold
so when I'm lying in my bed
thoughts running through my head
and I feel that love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

and through it all
she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I'm right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
when I come to call
she wont forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

when I'm feeling weak
and my pain walks down
a one way street
I look above
and I know i'll always be blessed with love
and as the feeling grows
she breathes flesh to my bones
and when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

and through it all
she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I'm right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
when I come to call
she wont forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

Christmas.

2008-12-28T00:30:00.002+08:00

Christmas came and gone. It has been a long journey since the start of the year.

Some things turned out as expected throughout the whole of this year, while others produced results that surprised even myself, like just the many different breakthroughs that I experienced this year, through doing things differently.

It really helps sometimes to tweak things round a bit. Even the minutest of changes can bring about a 180 degree turn to simple things. Doing things differently breeds different results, and sometimes, you just discover that one result that works, and you particularly like. That's when you've found a perfect solution, having the best of both worlds.

It's true... cos sometimes the things that work don't naturally agree with us, while the things that we like end up at utter disappointments or failures.

I hope that everyone out there would be able to find the beauty of doing things, and love going through the process, as it is going through the process that we learn and we gain experience on the ways to do things.

It's really a harsh world out there with harsh realities. Hopefully, everything will work out well, if we put our hearts towards creating a better future for ourselves, and the people around us.

I've learnt to hope for greater things that will come in the future.

"Just like we have been given eyes that look forward, we should always look ahead, towards a brighter, and greater, future." - Ash

The secret that we all know...

2008-12-28T00:12:00.006+08:00

The Secret - Ralph S. Cushman

I met God in the morning
When my day was at its best,
And his presence came like sunrise
Like a glory in my breast.

All day long the Presence lingered,
All day long he stayed with me,
And we sailed in perfect calmness
O’er a very troubled sea.

Other ships were blown and battered,
Other ships were sore distressed,
But the winds that seemed to drive them
Brought to us a peace and rest.

Then I thought of other mornings,
With a keen remorse of mind,
When I too had loosed the moorings,
With the Presence left behind.

So I think I know the secret,
Learned from many a troubled way:
You must seek him in the morning
If you want him through the day!

--

A great poem.

Dreams

2008-12-22T00:55:00.004+08:00

You don't have to chase after your dreams.
They were already with you the day you visualised them.
It's time to find the dreams in you, awaken them, and let them flourish.

Teehee.

2008-12-20T22:50:00.002+08:00

Christmas is coming!
Christmas is coming!
Christmas is coming!
Christmas is coming!
Christmas is coming!
Christmas is coming!
Christmas is coming!
Christmas is coming!
Christmas is coming!
Christmas is coming!
Christmas is coming!

--

5 more days!
Can't wait... can you?? :)

Starting Afresh

2008-12-16T22:17:00.003+08:00

Seems like everyone's already in the rah-rah mood for Christmas. Seriously, it's already as good as smelling it. Haha.

Just been thinking about the past year... about the experiences I've gone through, and also of the many different things that I've taken back with me.

Yep, it's true, I still kinda blame myself for making stupid and rash decisions in the past... which I have to live with now I guess. Sometimes I really chide myself for not having the courage to say the words I have to say, which I feel I should. Nevertheless, it's not just the words, but also the actions. Well...

I've said at the start of this year that I'm bringing music back into my life. And I guess that music has really brought about many different feelings and emotions, maybe even experiences throughout this year. Some songs just create that powerful feeling in you, one that you can't explain...

I just wanna take time, reflect on the past, and hope that I'd have the willpower never to repeat the past mistakes. Really want to build upon myself, be stronger, and more firm and asserting. (HEY, to make the people around feel secure ya?)

Right...

Actually, I think the whole aim of Christmas is for a fresh renewal, and being a "new-born" again.
Christmas, is the time of new birth, of new things to come, and also...

Starting afresh...

Hello. My name is Ashley. Nice to meet you! How do you do...

Life's lessons.

2008-12-07T00:20:00.007+08:00

We laughed, we cried also.

It has been one short year. It has also been one long year.

Each of us goes through the same 24 hours each day. However, time really flies when we're all having fun and enjoying ourselves. It also drags on and on when we're in our downhill periods. I guess that's just the nature of things... when we enjoy, we forget everything, including time, and while we feel sore about things, suddenly everything seems to matter.

I still can't make myself believe that 2008 has finally come to an end. It has been a journey that has transcended from the peaks, to the valleys of life... Yes, there were periods in this year when I was really down and out. Many a lesson has been learnt throughout this time, that has impacted my life in many different ways. Just the simple acts of getting to know others better has taught me many lessons, through the experiences that they had, and the things they have learnt and improved on.

Others' life lessons are truly eye-openers.
What they've learnt throughout, or rather, discovered, are their own flaws, either through their own discovery, or through others' points of view towards them. More importantly, is the efforts they have put into attempting to change themselves and then improve themselves, thus 'creating' a brand new person (BETTER OF COURSE!).

Actually, what we need to learn from is to have the raw perseverence that they had in the process of their transformation. When you stumble and fall, and everything just seems against you, what you need is perseverence to continue to run the race.

I realised that I've become a happier person this past 2 months. Praying with Sharon each day helped me to realise the many different aspects of life that impact my life itself, and also my spiritual walk with God. Somehow, in my heart, I just feel burdened, knowing that I can do so much more, which perhaps, I haven't taken too much notice of in the past. It's time to change.

The most important lesson I've taken back with me this year, is that even though sometimes the troubles may seem just so insurmountable, and that there just seems to be no solution, I realised that there will always be something, or someone, who will guide you out of the situation. The only and most basic condition, is that you seek Him first, and He will show you the right thing to do, or that special someone, who will guide you out of your situation.

"Life's bitter at times. Yet, if we're able to find even the tiniest bit of sweetness in the midst of all the bitterness, then, we've found true happiness." - Ash (I guess this is original) :)

He created.

2008-12-05T02:22:00.005+08:00

He created light,
giving us a vision,
to believe, to see.

He created Heaven,
a sanctuary for us,
a place of wonderful things.

He created land,
providing a foundation,
to construct and build upon.

He created the seas
to muster our courage,
to venture into the deep unknowns.

He created the birds of the skies,
to show us that we can soar above the clouds,
when we fulfill our dreams.

He created the animals of the land,
to teach us the responsibility,
of caring for them all.

He created Man and Woman,
to build on relationships,
and create everlasting bonds.

Then He rested,
to appreciate His wonderful creations,
and blessed and sanctified them.

Life's fun!

2008-12-02T20:19:00.009+08:00

Yeah.

The things you can do when you're out with friends. Yahaa.

1st PICs!!!!

Something in me just had to do that.

Was doing some mirror/message thingy. Quite cool. But didn't take photos of that. Haha.

What to do when CC got hungry???

Well. Am now in camp once again, as always. Seems like it would be yet another week of hectic activity, considering that the festive season's COMING UP!

Yay!

Really can't wait the next 3 weeks. Have a feeling they are going to be the longest 3 weeks here. Haha.

BTW, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAR! Welcome to Club 2x.

Friends

2008-11-27T01:43:00.004+08:00

How far would you go for your friends?

I've learnt, maybe not to take things at their face value, or what they seem to be, cos most of the time they don't end up being correct.

What we see from the outside may not be what is on the inside, and it's through true friendship that we'll be able to understand how another is feeling; his emotions, thoughts and many other things that aren't shown on the outside.

The test of the strength of friendship, or rather, tests, will always come our way, undermining the bonds and trusts we have created and moulded... it always seems that something trivial can really shake the foundations of the very basis of trust we have in each other... maybe a wrong thought, a wrong word, or a wrong action... or maybe even a misinterpretation of them...

After all, it's always the people closest to you whom you misunderstand the most, and it's the same people whom you always find yourself getting into conflicts with most often.

WHY?

Simply because you're spending most of your time with them, and that's all that matters.

Fix You + Asia Conference

2008-11-25T09:37:00.003+08:00

I think this is one of the best songs ever written.

Coldplay - Fix You

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
And I will try to fix you,

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

--

Asia Conference 2008 has concluded. Things have been done, and there were so many lessons that I've taken back with me.

I guess the fact is that many of us are really going to miss the times we spend together queueing, and the fellowship that we had throughout the past few days. I agree, that the hectic days, which were packed till the brim, coupled with the Expo location did take a toll on our sleeping hours.

But with that, I'm really glad that we've all stuck together throughout this period, and I've seen people doing so many wondrous things. Even though we were tired in our bodies, the energy just flowed through us each and every time we were together.

Just like Ps. A R Bernard mentioned,

"Transform the people, who will in turn transform the place."

Go out into the world, change the people and IMPACT THE WORLD!

Matt 28:19 - "Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit."

2008-11-13T19:36:00.003+08:00

Have been practically slogging it out the past few days.
One day upon another of busyness.
Wonder how things are really going on along for the others.

Sometimes sitting down at home just doesn't get you where you want to go, both literally and figuratively.
Spending my time planning how to think, and then, thinking how to plan...

That's life for now.

Anyway, life's also full of countdowns.

For those who haven't yet realised, yeah 2009's on the way.
Less than 2 months. LEFT.

Well...
Doors have been closed, yet ahead, more doors open.
Maybe it's time to shift my focus and sight towards something brand new?

And...
Tis' the season to be JOLLY!
Christmas on the way!

One more thing...
LLL.
Love Living Life.

:)

My Wish.

2008-10-31T23:34:00.002+08:00

Past few days have really been a blur. Just came and went by. So quickly. As a note, it's another 364 days to my next Birthday. Yep.

Wanna THANK everyone for their well-wishes and for the gifts as well.

My greatest wish this year, is as the song goes,
that our dreams will always stay big and our worries always stay small.

We will keep on moving on, treading onto new paths and directions, even though sometimes we might stumble, fall, and get hurt.

Enjoy!

Rascal Flatts - My Wish

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

Things worth living for

2008-10-26T02:48:00.005+08:00

Another example of erratic timings in my world now...
Night shifts aren't always eventful... but there's always something to be done.
I'm practically already conditioned into this kind of schedule. No worries for me :)

Some food for thought. Just a random piece-together of my thoughts. Hope it makes sense at all, 'cause I just wrote down whatever came to mind...

Wonder if we have all been caught up in this busy world and have forgotten the most simple things that actually bring us joy.

Many of us just spend our whole lives cooped up in work. We're the ostriches of the modern time, though we don't bury our heads in the ground; we bury them in our books, papers, computers...

Maybe it's just the age we live in now... a world so full of expectations, competitions and comparisons... just a few of the things that we have been conforming to for a long, long time I guess.

Someone always seems to expect something out of you, even if it might be yourself...
Then we find ourselves competing against others for positions...
At the same time, we're constantly compared to others' progress...

It's true, many of us do these in the course of achieving success and happiness.

But... What is true happiness?

Is it when we pursue after our dreams?
Is it when we start to make headway into fulfilling our dreams?
Or is it when we finally see ourselves where we want to be?

Truth is, you don't have to be successful to be happy. Look around you... there may be people who are much less fortunate as you are, YET, they are able to find happiness in many different ways, be it in the little that they have.

Has the environment really hardened many of us into what we are today?

The harsh reality is that we neglect many things around us in pursuit of our own warped ideas of success and happiness.

Having a few questions about a few simple things...

Why, have out priorities changed so much over the times?
Has success got in the way of family and friendship, so much that we value position over kinship?

Why, can't people slow down just to appreciate the rainbow as the skies clear after the rain?
Has society sped up so much that we can't take some time off the just enjoy our surroundings?

Why, does it seem that we lose things much easier than we find things?
Maybe we're too caught up in so many things that we don't notice the details?

Why, can't some people just accept failure as part and parcel of life?
Have we forgotten that what matters is what we have learnt and what not to repeat?

True happiness is shared with the people around us... having a passion and sharing a passion with others. Then, when we reach the top, achieve what we've set out to do, that we have people to celebrate with.

Consider the following. We humans are social beings. We come into the world as the result of others' actions. We survive here in dependence on others. Whether we like it or not, there is hardly a moment of our lives when we do not benefit from others' activities. For this reason it is hardly surprising that most of our happiness arises in the context of our relationships with others. - Tenzin Gyatso, The Dalai Lama

Also, happiness comes from the heart.

Happiness cannot come from without. It must come from within. It is not what we see and touch or that which others do for us which makes us happy; it is that which we think and feel and do, first for the other fellow and then for ourselves. - Helen Keller

Most importantly, don't forget that even though one door is closed, there will ALWAYS be another opened for us.

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. - Helen Keller

Don't always be in a rush to do things. Sometimes we take too many shortcuts to do things... we may grasp the idea of how things are done, but what about others' behind us? Are we really going to skip so many steps that others who are following get confused and lost? Sometimes, it doesn't hurt to spend more time going through the entire process. It helps in the learning process, and it's how you figure out where mistakes are made, and how to solve the problems you encounter. That way, everybody learns, and everyone benefits.

There's always a time for everything we do. Some things should be done now... others later, and others, maybe not at all...

From the Bible:

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.
- Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

In the right season...
Find, and do things that are worth fighting for...
For the people around us...
For true happiness.

PASSED!!

2008-10-16T00:10:00.002+08:00

Passed it!!! Haha.

If you're wondering what, it's the adv theory test for driving.

Was delibating whether to press the "End Test" button for a while... couldn't decide at all... but I finally did, and I'm happy :)

Now on to the practical test.
More lessons coming up!!!

xD

:)

2008-10-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

Have been putting a lot of smiley faces around here and there.

Yep, wanna keep a smile on my face wherever I go.

I'm really stuck here now. Adv Theory on Wednesday, and my book's at home... GREAT JOB Ash...

Ashley is so looking forward to the end of October.
Ashley is waiting for the middle of November.
Ashley is also waiting for the end of December!!!

Yeah, Ashley is still in camp today, and tomorrow. Means that he has 1 night... yeah ONE night to cram everything into his head. Yeah... CRAM... Teehee

:O

Crap.

He presumes he's kinda dead.

Hurhur.

Back to the waiting for the months... and Ashley has decided he's not gonna type in 3rd person anymore cos it's irritating him. Takes less effort to type "I" rather than "He"... even though it's only 1 letter.

Something's happening at the end of October.
Asia Conference in the middle of November.
Christmas at the end of December.

I'm gonna be like super free on those occasions.

2 weeks off during the Asia Conference, and I'll get to go for X'mas as well. SO HAPPAY!!!

Another 2.5 more months to go before the end of 2008. Wondering what will come this coming 2010. Many things have definitely taken flight this year, considering that so many new things have happened, and so many new opportunities have come my way.

Have begun to do some, doing some now, and completed others. I think this year has been a very fruitful year as it is already. Yup. There have been many changes here and there but changes would and will always be around all of us. Just a matter of how we adapt to them.

It has already been a meaningful year for me. Wonder how it really went for you guys reading this now. Hopefully, you've all experienced things that have enriched and empowered you.

2.5 months to go.

Don't really know what might or can happen during this period of time, many things that we might not have expected can happen and just suddenly change the environment around us. The changes may be drastic.

But guess what....
I'm ready for it and I'm gonna meet it head-on.
ARE YOU?

JIAYOU! JIAYOU!

Sway

2008-10-11T06:27:00.004+08:00

Bic Runga - Sway

Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better of me
Sometimes
When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown

Let me down
I say it's all because of you

And here I go
Losing my control
I'm practising your name
So I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time

Tell you why
I say it's infinitely true

Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you

And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everything's turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart

And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon

Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you

Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you

Its all because of you
Its all because of you

Now, it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon

Its time, tell you why
I say it's infinitely true

Say you'll stay
Don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know
All about you

Its all because of you
Its all because of you
Its all because of you

--

Beautiful song...
It's all because of you.

:O

2008-10-11T03:14:00.002+08:00

Night shift.

Explains why I'm still here at 3.15am.

Haven't been even feeling tired at all... guess I've been sleeping too much in the mornings xD
Nights aren't always eventful. Don't want things going on either... just leaving it the way it is now would be perfect.

Either way, haven't been putting anything in here lately. Don't really seem to have anything to anyway. It's already the weekend...

Saturday...

The week really went by so quickly. So many things have come and passed. Haha. Just finding myself relaxing a bit here and there now.

Well, anyway, back to the movies :)

--

Movie-addicted.

Gin-Nah

2008-10-01T22:44:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHILDRENS' DAY!

Well... there's always that kid in us right? Hahas. Enjoy this day as I believe that it belongs to everyone, young and old.

:)

Busy day today with the kids. Dunno why, but today felt different. Really different. The atmosphere was just perfect. Perfect.

Packed...
Seriously...

The turnout today at Children's Day Service was just overwhelming. Imagine the auditorium filled with so many kids, that there was almost no space to walk...

Woohoo.

Can't wait to see something like that happening in CG. Believe it's soon. Yeah... SOON!

I'm excited.

"If you create an act, you create a habit. If you create a habit, you create a character. If you create a character, you create a destiny." - Andre Mauro

I believe.

"Believe and act as if it were impossible to fail." - Charles F. Kettering

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE

Well.

2008-09-28T15:37:00.003+08:00

Just wanna say,

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."
- Eleanor Roosevelt

Woohoo

2008-09-27T08:07:00.002+08:00

Pierce Brosnan's singing's EPIC! As in HOT! Haha.

Yeah, caught Mamma Mia yesterday with Daniel, Darryl, Alex, Jo, Ting & Kai :)

People were just hysterical during the movie, no thanks to Brosnan <-- told ya his singing's epic (if you haven't realised it's just up there)

Anyway,

Engage pop culture
Driven for revival
Godly
Expressing creativity

EDGE meeting was great!

Just know that what you wanna do, NOW's the time to embrace whatever there is and JUST DO IT! The youth out there, be it you or me, are the next generation to take over the legacy left by the pioneers.

They have shaped the course for us; laid the foundation, and now it's our turn to continue to lay the footstones to continue building the path ahead of us, towards a brighter and better future! Discover yourself, and the talents you have along the way, and use them as a means for engaging society. BE CREATIVE!

When do we do it?

NOW!

A-Z

2008-09-22T00:13:00.003+08:00

Kinda had some thoughts about some things.

Well, here are the A-Z of qualities.

Enjoy :)

Available
Bold
Caring
Devoted
Energetic
Faithful
Giving
Hardworking
Initiative
Jovial
Knowledgable
Loving
Meticulous
Natural
Organized
Passionate
Quick
Respect
Serving
Thoughtful
Understanding
Veracious
Willing
X'traordinary
Youthful
Zealous

Am gonna elaborate on them when I have the time... watch out for MORE!!!

As for now, I'm already back in camp LOL.

Burnt.

2008-09-21T19:13:00.002+08:00

MY INTERNAL CLOCK's SPOILT.

Seriously.

So very tired, but I'm going to tough it out tonight, for tomorrow, it's back to camp...

Woohoo...

Right...

Didn't get to do much this week out... busy busy busy.

Can't think straight now also. Haha.

:)

2008-09-16T18:51:00.002+08:00

HOME SWEET HOME!

Once again... I'm HOME!

Has really been a long long week... another one waiting for me next weekend...

NOOO...

I guess I'm kinda adapted to the lifestyle already. Though it's gonna get messy during the holiday seasons, especially with X'mas, NY and CNY coming up. The good thing is, I only go through it once, so well... haha. It's probably going to be a time where I'll just stone in camp, wishing that I was outside, but well... a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do.

Life has seriously taken a U-turn ever since I started NS. So many things have happened, and so many more things are going to happen. I'm excited! :)

Didn't expect to be doing what I am now, and definitely didn't expect to be here writing all about it, 8 months into it.

Can you imagine that? 8 MONTHS!
That's 1/3 of army life that has already passed by.

Another 2/3 to go. 16 months, and 14 months before I "turn off".

I guess...

--

Faith.

Oh?

2008-09-14T18:59:00.001+08:00

Hmm. Random posting!

Random random random.

Okies, imma done.

LOL.

Woo.

2008-09-08T01:39:00.002+08:00

Another 5 hours and I'll be back in camp once again.

Well.

Life has certainly been the same repeating schedule every 2 weeks... maybe some minor changes here and there, but it's all almost the same. I guess it's the same for the students as well; 5 days of school and then 2 days of break (weekends) every week. Maybe it's a tad better for me, considering that mine lasts a longer duration, but it's bad as well. LOL.

Speaking of students, its back to school for them all later today as well. Wonder if they're all prepared for school... it's already the last term before the final exams. Many peeps are already fretting over the 'O's and the 'A's, while some others are fretting over other things.

Oh well. That was long long ago for me.

Just really slacking around now. Haha. Haven't got anything better to do for now. Gotta go pack my stuff later. I guess I'll catch a short nap later on. Otherwise, I'm just waiting for today to pass. Then I'll be able to catch up on sleep... in camp. Hawhaw.

Need to buy new things. Crap. Too busy this whole week... really really too busy...

Need to free up some time soon. :)

--

I'll put a smile on your face.

Once again after a while.

2008-08-30T22:53:00.002+08:00

Has been a long time. Have really been kinda busy these past few days.

There are so many things that I wanna do... which I practically can't now. LOL. Anyway, I'll be out earlier this week, but in earlier next week. It's gonna be the same duration... just earlier. Means that I don't get to spend Monday out. Pffft.

Have got a Ministry gathering on Sunday at 7pm, and back to camp on Monday... Zzz.

Well. I guess I'm just waiting for more things to do and more fun.

Be positive! 1 year 5 months left. Woo. 7 months gone in a blink of an eye.

Really hope days will get better, and better.

I wanna experience something new... something out of this world! Haha.

Here's a SHOUTOUT to EVERYONE OUT THERE!! HIYA!!

One message for today:
Chase your dreams.
I believe that dreams and visions are given to us by God, and no matter what struggles we face in the process, we should do out best to overcome the problems. I really wonder how many people just give up all hope just because of one single failure... To succeed is not to give up, no many how many times you fail in the process. True perseverance and hard work will see us through to success.

There's still something I'm really working on, and I don't care if it's gonna take me the next few years, what matters is what I learn in the process, and how I improve myself from even the littlest mistakes that I make.

Remember one thing. Have faith, believe, and trust in Him for all things, and He will make them come to pass.

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Faith.

Some food for thought.

2008-08-16T18:20:00.005+08:00

A PRE-SCHOOL TEST FOR YOU

Which way is the bus below traveling?
To the left or to the right?

Can't make up your mind?
Look carefully at the picture again.
?
Still don't know?

Pre-schoolers were shown this picture asked the same question.

90% of the pre-schoolers gave this answer.

…

…

…

'The bus is traveling to the right .'
When asked, 'Why do you think the bus is traveling to the right ?'

They answered:

'Because you can't see the door to get on the bus.'

How do you feel now ????

I know... me too.

An early morning post!?

2008-08-14T08:52:00.002+08:00

Well, here I am!

Wonder how everyone's doing nowadays... so many things going on outside. Many peeps studying hard for their exams and many others also working at the same time.

For me, it has been a hectic 1st 2 days of work already. Today marks the 3rd day, and I still have things to rush to complete before 12pm... thing is... we don't even have the required stuff to start, and we're expected to finish by 12. Oh man.

Yesterday was seriously a blur... came up with quite a bad headache in the midst of all the work. But it still came to an end... even though it was at 10pm. LOL!

There's so much to do, yet so little time to do all those things... it's time to multiply my time.

Cheers!
:)

Back.

2008-08-08T08:08:00.001+08:00

Don't have much to write here... just thought that I should add a new song to the playlist lol.

Life has really been a blur. Really can't imagine its 3 weeks since my last post LOL.

Anyway, today is 08/08/08. Wooo. Posing at 08.08am also haha.

Tml's National Day.

Well, HAPPY B'DAY SINGAPORE!

Cheerio!

2am

2008-07-18T02:09:00.005+08:00

Blogging at 2am. Well. Don't really have anything to do now in camp... free time through the duty... hahas. Haven't really wrote much here since a long long time ago...

Days have just been shuffling between the 12 hours of duty and 12 hours of rest.

Life's fine here. Duty periods are quite eventless... until something happens, then we all get frantic. Right... It's not actually, but when we get busy, we really get busy. Do find that night shift's just alright so far. There's so much else that one can do in the night, like a lot of free time basically.

Rest times are a time of sleep, and more sleep. Maybe some entertainment here and there. TV, games... blah blah. There isn't much to do otherwise... anyway, am normally too tired to do anything else haa.

Yeah, I'm still grousing over the loss of alternate weekends, but I guess I've no choice and no say in that matter. That's what everybody here does anyway. Just have to cherish the times I have outside more. Anyway, I do feel that the times spent outside become much more meaningful, considering the little time that I get to spend with the CG and friends out there...

I'm still quite amazed at how things are developing over the weeks... can really see many changes in the CG and in different people... though I hope that some can understand that the many things that have been going on are just part of the process of growth.

Have one thing to say to everyone out there though... "Consider your actions, and MAKE SURE it's the correct course of action before you even embark on it." Do we really have to "knock" it into some people at times? I know that things tend to get out of hand when we become more and more deeply involved in the things that we do, but this is one word we SHOULD ALWAYS remember, "Restraint".

Say, I'm really hoping to meet new people soon; make new friends... Looking at the way the CG's growing, I'm sure that it'll be a sure thing that I'll be able to get to see new faces soon! Guys, don't worry if you do not see instant results. Persistence and perseverance in whatever we do will lead to much greater things to come! DON'T GIVE UP ya! JIAYOU!

As we are now in the 2nd half of the year, I know that many of y'all have many different commitments in many different areas. Studies, work... blah blah (I guess students have it harder now, considering that it's like, oh my gosh, 3 more months to the finals). Well, just a word of encouragement here for all of you out there, who may feel hard-pressed at times, and feeling down at times when you struggle through the many different things you do.

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
- Unknown

Here's another from Ted Roosevelt, a message of trying, and never giving up:

"It is not the critic who counts;
not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled
or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.
The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena,
whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood;
who strives valiantly;
who errs and comes short again and again;
who knows great enthusiasms,
the great devotions;
who spends himself in a worthy cause;
who at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement,
and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly
so that his place shall never be with those timid souls who know neither victory or defeat."

- Theodore Roosevelt

Shine for God in everything you do!

Gave myself one task earlier... It's "Get to know everyone better" time. :)

Cheerio!

--

Smile! xD

New skin?

2008-07-07T23:03:00.001+08:00

I need a new skin? NOT!

At least not now... not enough time.

Yep.

2008-07-06T22:22:00.001+08:00

I'm Blessed.

Eyebags.

2008-07-06T22:00:00.002+08:00

Hi all!

As of this moment, I have not slept properly for 32 hours, 47 minutes and 27 seconds. In any case, I guess I won't be seeing my bed till at least 9am tomorrow. Haha. Have been stuck where I am now for the past above-stated time. Haven't seen the sunlight for that long either. LOL.

Yeah, its that long cos I'm still watching movies haha. Have been watching them the whole day already, and there are still many more to go!

Don't know why, but I'm still quite energetic... maybe it's because of the stuff I do here... not much, nice atmosphere... right...

THE AIR HERE IS BAD. NO FRESH AIR! But then again, I shouldn't be complaining, considering the perks... xD

Going back to the screens now! TATA!

--

Zonked.

Haiz.

2008-07-03T07:17:00.004+08:00

So late. Hahas.

Night duty kinda rocks sometimes.

Pondering now though.

Wondering what else I should do.

Still gotta wait for something at 3am. After that, a short nap. xD

Won't be able to take a good rest later after duty, got quite a bit of things to do before I get back to camp again... Haiz.

Make the best out of the time I have now.

--

Signing off for now.
Why have things changed so much since the day I told her... was it wrong?

A New Song

2008-06-30T02:19:00.003+08:00

Something Beautiful - Robbie Williams

You can't manufacture a miracle
The silence was pitiful - that day
And love is getting too cynical
Passion's just physical - these days
You analyse everyone you meet
But get no sign - loving kind
Every night you admit defeat
And cry yourself blind

If you can't wake up in the morning
'Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If your lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it - try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Something beautiful will come your way

The DJ said on the radio
Life should be stereo - each day
And the past that cast the unsuitable
Instead of some kind of beautiful
You just couldn't wait
All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see you soul no, no, no
Forgot the time, feeling petrified
When they lived alone

If you can't wake up in the morning
'Cause you bed lies vacant at night
If your lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it - try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Something beautiful will come your way

(It'll come your way)
(It'll come your way) Some kind of beautiful
(It'll come your way) Some kind of beautiful
(It'll come your way) Some kind of beautiful
(It'll come your way)

All you friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul, no, no, no
Forget the time feeling petrified
When they lived alone

If you can't wake up in the morning
'Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If your lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it - try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Something beautiful will come your way

You won't be lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Something beautiful will come your way

Special Day

2008-06-28T22:08:00.000+08:00

2 more days!

Haha.

30/6

Anyone wants to guess why?

Well, it's the one special day I accepted Christ into my life, and 30/06/08 is the 1st anniversary! Haha.

Excited.

Skool's started...

2008-06-24T00:52:00.002+08:00

School reopens on the 23rd of June, year 2008.

I don't have to go back :) Have already spent sooooo much time in school these past years. Well, just wanna wish everyone a good 2nd semester in school ya! It's the more important part of the school year.

Crap. Ok, I'll admit it. I miss school.

Can't help it either, I guess... haha!

Anyway, I'm on the night shift now... gonna be around till 7.30am, for today. It's tough work ok? Maybe, maybe not... xD

Weekend shift's quite good eh... watched like over 10 movies in the span of 48 hours. Woo. Just to name a few: Flood, Die Hard 4.0, Kung Fu Panda, Scary Movie 4, The Game Plan, 21, Jiang Shan Mei Ren, V for Vendetta, Blood Diamonds, Saw IV, Evan Almighty... The PERKS!

Went to the A&E this morning... something wrong with my throat... wonder what... hope it's nothing bad.

I'm gonna think up of some random stuff and have a mega-post someday soon... I should. Woo. Gives me something to read also, when I can't find anything else, cos I won't ever remember what I posted. Wahahaha!

--

Off.

The song :)

2008-06-19T15:43:00.001+08:00

Enjoy!!

Bubbly - Colbie Caillat

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin like a child now
Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglies in a silly place

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Where ever it goes I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Where ever you go

The rain is fallin on my window pane
But we are hidin in a safer place
Under the covers stayin dry and warm
You give me feelins that I adore

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Where ever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Where ever you go

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way
I just........

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Where ever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Where ever you go

I’ve been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
Im comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time
Holdin me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go...

No time?

2008-06-19T15:37:00.001+08:00

This is an abrupt post. I have no time.

LIFE.

2008-06-14T01:37:00.004+08:00

What's Life?

My conclusion...

Lasting

Impressions

Fulfilling

Experiences

That's life for you.

What we show to others and what we do in our lives. Making the best out of everything ya!

I guess that the things that matter most to us are actually those that are ordinary and not special.

:)

Random thoughts.

2008-06-08T21:35:00.006+08:00

Hmm.

I'm gonna start posting some random thoughts here.

Each week has been passing by very quickly. Come to think of it, it's already almost 5 months since I entered the army. Time really flies. Wonder how the rest of it will be. Anyway, I'm very certain that as each day passes, there will be new things everywhere! Seriously can't wait for proper work to start!

I'm EXCITED!!! I'm gonna have a great time. DUH.

By the way, the past week was terrific! So many things that have been done, and everything just seems to fit in nicely, without much problem. It's the kind of atmosphere I'm looking for.

Oh ya... I'm gonna post an early HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ANGEL a.k.a. Buddy. It's her b'day tomorrow, but well, don't think I'll be able to post anything later then...

Some people will wonder why I'm here posting on a Sunday night, when I'm supposed to be heading back to camp. Well, keep wondering. c(=

It's true... I'm kinda a "little bit" disappointed that I CAN'T join THE REST at CAMP X.

I'm gonna start.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!?!?!?!

LOL.

But then again... who says I ain't going to camp? It's just a DIFFERENT camp only. It's still a CAMP :)

Well, enjoy yourselves guys! Can't wait to see the photos.

Speaking of which, I just realised that I haven't even posted a single picture here...

Here goes nothing:

More to come another time, if I ever get about plugging my phone or camera to the computer.

Hahas xD

Okay, going to go off now.

TATA!

Another song.

2008-06-07T00:24:00.004+08:00

Dunno why I keep posting new songs... well, guess it's for y'all to enjoy!!! HAHAS!

Have fun and stay tuned!

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

o.O

2008-06-01T21:09:00.003+08:00

RaNdOm ThOtS.

I must be really crazy to be blogging now WAHAHAHHA!

Need to be back at camp by 1015. But here I am!

This past week has gone by soooooo fast. Don't even know what has happened... actually I'm at camp everyday so well... let's say I remember breakfast, lunch and dinner. Hmm...

1 hour and counting. Well. I wonder what's gonna happen in the next few days... going over to another camp to do other things. Say, I'm not doing what I've been taught to do. Weird isn't it?

Looking forward to more and more and more and more and............. more things.

Really am typing tons of rubbish here. Don't have an agenda at all... LOL.

I think I really gotta run SOON.

Don't really know what my schedule will be like anytime soon. Hopefully it will be something good ya? Really want a 'lil nice schedule that would fit into whatever I want to do.

If it doesn't, well... can't help it anyway. Bwah.

Signing off now. Really really gotta go. Ha.

=)

Love it.

2008-05-30T19:33:00.002+08:00

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks,
And I'm tryin to get back

Before the cool done run out I'll be givin it my best test
And nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn
To win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more,
It cannot wait I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love

Listen to the music at the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melody
It's your god forsaken right to be
Loved loved loved loved loved

So, I won't hesitate no more, no more,
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
And bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed

I guess what I'm a sayin'is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, i'm sure

(There's no need to complicate
Our time is short it cannot wait,
I'm yours x2

No please don't complicate,
Our time is short this is our fate,
I'm yours.

No please don't hesitate no more,
No more it cannot wait, the sky is yours!)

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
Ah, la one big family
It's your god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved

Open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
Ah, la happy family
It's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved

Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
Ah, la peaceful melodies
It's you god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved...

Perceptions.

2008-05-25T00:08:00.003+08:00

I've been thinking about some things out of the ordinary. Hahas.

Ever wondered how our human mind plays tricks on us?

Here's one... Just tell yourself not to think about anything, seriously, ANYTHING. Can't seem to get it out of your head anymore right?

Read this statement: Swallow your saliva."
You now have one more thing to concentrate on...

One more.
"Blink your eyes."

It's really amazing that we don't notice these involuntary actions each and every day of our lives, that is, until someone, like yours truly, or something, reminds you about it.

When you feel the lump in your throat each time you swallow your saliva, or feel the movement of your eyelids, you can't help but wonder why, and how come you don't feel a thing at all in normal circumstances. Amazing?

Hmm.

Personally, I think that as we get older, we tend to get too analytical about things, thus making us think too deeply of things, especially of simple questions, like "What's 1 + 1?"

I think most adults would wonder about the question and as a result, take more time before they come up with an answer to it...

--

Some food for thought.

Maybe

2008-05-24T01:49:00.002+08:00

Perhaps I'm really going through something...

Really don't know what... but this popped up in my head all of a sudden 2 days back...

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths" (Prov 3:5-6)

No.

2008-05-19T22:17:00.005+08:00

I'm not gonna let anything pull me down.

Things have happened.

I can't change anything.

What I can do, is just to make it all better.

I've experienced, learnt, and now I've got to change.

"The lamp of the body is the eye. If therefore your eye is good, your whole body will be full of light" (Matt 6:13)

I will see, observe, and I will change.

Anyway,

I'm heading back to camp tomorrow. Will be stuck there for the next 1.5 years or so... till 25th Jan 2010... well... it's army life.

Seriously, WHY? Why me? Let me know soon please...

--

...

Your Guardian Angel

2008-05-18T00:36:00.003+08:00

Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.

Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

--

I'll be your guardian angel.

Happy man.

2008-05-11T01:22:00.001+08:00

Just told myself I'm gonna be happy no matter what happens. Even if I don't get answers I expect or hope to get. Well...

HAHAS!!!

Here's to a new and fresh beginning.

HAPPY!

--

Delighted.

Do I?

2008-05-04T17:32:00.003+08:00

Do I?

I really wonder. Can't help that some things don't seem to get any better. Things come and go, but whatever it is just seems stuck here all the time.

Not gonna elaborate.

Have to head back to camp soon... one whole day of crapping around already. Can't even go for my grandma's b'day dinner. It's just plain dumb.

Have I had enough?

I really don't know at all. It's just weird thinking about certain things. When you consider things from one angle, to another angle, to yet another angle, the perspectives just change, and things just end up becoming more complicated.

What can I do?

Don't really know the answer to that too. I guess I'll just leave it all to God then. Hopefully I'll get an answer soon. Sometimes, the process really causes you to suffer a lot, when you keep waiting, waiting, waiting... But that's life, isn't it?

I'm looking ahead?

There's yet another 2 more weeks to the end of my training. Can't imagine that I've actually gone through 6 weeks already. But the tough part's just beginning. There are still many more things that have to be done, and the focus is now on these last 2 weeks. 2 weeks. All I have to make good my time in Stagmont. Have to hit the "books" once again.

What's in store for me?

Yet another "Don't know..." The future is just there, but I just don't know what's ahead for me. Yeah, everyone hopes for good things to keep coming their way, but I expect some bad things to happen as well. A life without balances is not a life at all.

I really, really, really hope that I'll get an answer...

--

Thinking.

Song.

2008-05-04T17:14:00.003+08:00

I've decided.

All My Life - K-C and JoJo

I will never find another lover
Sweeter than you,
Sweeter than you.
I will never find another lover
More precious than you,
More precious than you.

Girl you are
Close to me you're like my mother,
Close to me you're like my father,
Close to me you're like my sister,
Close to me you're like my brother

You are the only one my everything
And for you this song I sing

All my life, I pray for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life, I pray for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me too

Said I promised to never fall in love with a stranger,
You're all I'm thinking of I praise the Lord above,
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug,
I REALLY LOVE YOU!!!

All my life, I pray for someone like you,
I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I pray for someone like you
I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me

You're all that Ive ever known,
Your smile on your face,
All I see is a glow,
You turned my life around,
You picked me up when I was down,
Youre all that Ive ever known,
When you smile Your face glows,
You picked me up when I was down
Youre all that Ive ever known,
When you smileYour face glows,
You picked me up when I was down...

I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me too

All my life I pray for someone like you
I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I pray for someone like you
I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me too [ x3]

Risk

2008-05-03T01:15:00.002+08:00

I took a risk. Sometimes the outcome will definitely be good, but sometimes not. But if I cannot be a risk-taker, how can I advance in life.

Life's all about risks. Without it, there can be no outcome.

Well...

Some food for thought

-Every beginning comes to an end, but with each end, gives birth to a new beginning.

New things come about everytime, it's just whether we meet up with the new challenges head-on and decide on finding solutions for them, or we just sit back, relax, and end up losing everything we have. The end is only a place for us to create a new beginning.

-A man who has no failures is a man who does nothing.

Who hasn't met with them in life. Not everything we do will definitely end up in success. There's still a 0.01% chance of failure in something that has a 99.99% chance of success. What matters most is that we try, and we work hard at trying.

Watch out for a new song coming up soon! Am deciding between 2 of them.

Things.

2008-04-28T14:54:00.003+08:00

We tend to do stupid things once in a while.

Well, mostly cos we don't think about what we're doing at some point or other ya? Very true for me though... advanced brain degeneration? No I'm not senile.

Wondering about so many things going on these past few days. Guess my last post was a little "emo"? Perhaps... Seriously, I can't have "emo-kia" back into the picture again. It's not gonna work out for me, and I'm definitely not gonna let it!

Just think that I'm rambling on and on and on for now. In camp now... well... taking time to just type this out, not really thinking much cos there really isn't a lot of time ya. Life has been good so far. Nothing much out of the ordinary actually. I'm just happy that things are going on normally. Don't need something to pop out all of the sudden. Yeah, maybe something special and exciting to make my day better, but I'm happy just as it is.

It's good to let your mind wonder, and wander at times. But I guess that if we can be happy just being where we're at now, the world will be a much better place for everyone.

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Peace and joy.

Back blogging again.

2008-04-27T18:43:00.006+08:00

Well. I guess there really are too many things in my mind now. Someone please read my mind and understand how I'm feeling? o.O THANKS!

Why can't they understand?

Nothing much to post really... just that I managed to get 88% for my 1st module! HAHA! On my way to more certs!

BWAH.

Outing just now. Cycled to my heart's delight. Haven't cycled in ages. Guess I oughtta restart again. Been very busy. Well, 3 more weeks till the end of course. Hopefully I'll go somewhere fun and great ya?

Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever Had

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I’m here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing’s quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it’s not so bad
You’re only the best I ever had
You don’t want me back
You’re just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I’m just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

But it’s not so bad
You’re only the best I ever had
You don’t need me back
You’re just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can’t take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You’re always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I’m here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I’m haunted

But it’s not so bad
You’re only the best I ever had
I don’t want you back
You’re just the best I ever had

The best I ever had
The best I ever

Hope this song can say something...

Is it ever possible for us? For her? For me?

Hahs

2008-04-19T22:57:00.002+08:00

TIME!

I NEED MORE OF YOU!

Blahs... always running outta time. Time really flies, but I guess in the wrong direction from which I want... HAHAS!

Anyway, Jo's today's star!

HAPPY B'DAY GAL!

Lolx.

TO ALL YOU PPLE OUT THERE!
Another 194 days to MINE!
I've got 2 statements to make!
1. Save $1 a day for me!
2. I'm disgusting.

Well.

CG's always great. SVC always is too. And I mean ALWAYS. Right? Like DUH!

Anyway, really hoping for new things to come, and good changes in my life. 4 more weeks in Stagmont. Halfway-thru, and time really flies. That's the second time I'm saying that. EMPHASIS people.

Mental block now.

I'm mental. Probably. For now.

Yeah.

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In that kinda whirly-whirly state.

Guess where I am?

2008-04-15T16:50:00.002+08:00

Its a nice sunny Tuesday afternoon, so guess where I am?

WAHAHAHAHA!

Hey hey

2008-04-13T17:09:00.001+08:00

I've been having a great time this past week.

On the way towards much better and much greater things.

YEAH!

Arsenal...

2008-04-06T02:43:00.001+08:00

Seems like everyone around me is anti-Arsenal...

Doesn't matter though...

Arsenal ROCKS!

GO GO GO!!!

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Psycho-ed.

Wonder

2008-04-04T15:49:00.003+08:00

Weird day to post right?
After all, I'm supposed to be in camp...
Well, I'm not...

Haiz. There's just this double feeling of joy and sadness in me. Don't really know why... I want to find out too. Guess some things are just too complicated to explain.

Don't have much to write even though its 2 weeks since I last posted.

Just have to say that I'm enjoying myself at camp...

Yup...

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Mixed.

The song.

2008-04-04T15:41:00.004+08:00

Beautiful Girl - Jose Marie Chan

Beautiful girl,
wherever you are
I knew when I saw you,
you had opened the door
I knew that I'd love again
after a long, long while
I'd love again.

You said "hello"
and I turned to go
But something in your eyes
left my heart beating so
I just knew that I'd love again
after a long, long while
I'd love again.

It was destiny's game
For when love finally came on
I rushed in line only to find
That you were gone.

Wherever you are,
I fear that I might
Have lost you forever
like a song in the night
Now that I've loved again
after a long, long while
I've loved again.

It was destiny's game
For when love finally came on
I rushed in line only to find
That you were gone.

Beautiful girl,
I'll search on for you
'Til all of your loveliness
in my arms come true
You've made me love again
after a long, long while
In love again

And I'm glad that it's you
Hmm, beautiful girl...

Hahas.

2008-03-22T00:07:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!
OMG!!!
OMG!!!

"You are posted to SIG INSTITUTE.
Your vocation is SIG OPR - INFOCOMM2."

Wahahahahaha! I'm gonna be a signaller! Guess what? It will be at Stagmont Camp at CCK. Exactly what and where I wanted!

Am happy as can be now.

Well. What went on for the past few days...

Monday.

Met up with Jo and Ze Xian for movie + Sakae. I recommend everyone watch August Rush if you can, and more still, in a movie theatre where you can let the sounds flow. Well...

I don't quite recommend what we did at Sakae though. Buffet without the usual spread... and with UFOs (Unidentified Fishy Objects) flying around.

Met up with Yuting, Yankai, Darryl and Sharon (for a while) later on. We walked ok? Was quite great though walking around Vivocity.

Tuesday.

Didn't do much in the morning... but met up with Liting, Yunting, Yankai and Yuheng in the evening... saw Edwin too... but he was there cos he was giving Yunting tuition.

Wednesday.

What did I do? Oh ya. Visitations for Children's Church with Joyce Tay. Hahas. Spent about 2 hours moving around. Was quite a new experience doing it... didn't expect much, but I got a lot out of it.

Thursday.

Went for Easter celebrations at Children's Church. Had a great time there. Took some kids there by cab. Racked up a nice fee, and learnt many "new things". Like I only have 2 eyes and 2 hands and 2 feet, and the feet can't move in different directions.

Friday.

Today is Good Friday. More Easter celebrations at Children's Church. Met up with Sze Yin in the morning for the transportation of the kids to church. We were both late. Well... anyway, service was great, and you should just hear the children sing. Totally angelic.

Met a very nice kid called Damien today.

Was a whole day of travelling around though.

Home to AMK to Serangoon to Jurong West to Serangoon to Jurong West to Dhoby Ghaut to Home.

Finally.

I know this post is very abrupt. Update more another time.

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Rushed... again...

No post

2008-03-21T00:24:00.001+08:00

Ash has been really busy the past few days?

Ah crap. Don't know what to do now...

Still awaiting my 1st pic.

I'll definitely post some substance tomorrow.

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Rushed.

To add.

2008-03-17T01:10:00.004+08:00

Remember the circle from the last post?

Yeah, it also determines the level of influence we have on the people around us. And the thing is, we don't determine which kind of man we are... the people around us do.

Have been going through a lot these past few days. Lost my voice, gained it back, lost it again, got it back again, lost and back again. Except this last time, it was much worse... got a cold and a cough at the same time.

Well...

Here's a song that I've been looking for for a very very long time. Didn't manage to remember the title the last time round. But well, here it is.

Better Together - Jack Johnson

There is no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard
And no song that I could sing but I could try for your heart
And our dreams and they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer at least for most of the questions in my heart
Why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together

Mmm, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments just might find their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings
Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see
But they'll be gone too, too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression I was somewhere in between
With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be we'll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeah, it's always better when we're together
Mmm, we're sometimes in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

I believe in memories they look so so pretty when I sleep
And when I wake up you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time
And there is no no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're better together

Back blogging.

2008-03-13T22:43:00.002+08:00

Finished applying for all the Unis yesterday... and now I've to go through a mini treasure hunt at home for my O lvl results slip and testimonial. Zzz. I'm literally hoping for the best already. I'm going somewhere!

Well, even though I still have another 2 more years... NS liability... but then again, who cares?

Emotions are flying, and I mean, SERIOUSLY.

Can't help thinking about some things here and there. Life has its ups and downs. Guess I'm just going through one of the down periods now. Can't change anything, well, it's life.

Got this from the LV ad. Found it very meaningful.

"What is a journey?
A journey is not a trip.
It's not a vacation.
It's a process. A discovery.
It's a process of self-discovery
A journey brings us face to face... with ourselves.
A journey shows us not only the world,
but how we fit in it.
Does the person create the journey
or does the journey create the person?
The journey is life itself.
Where will life take you?"

I know it seems really unrelated to LV, but well... got me wondering though... to the things we go through each day, moulding and shaping us. It's just like whether we allow circumstances to shape us, to dictate what and how we do things, or whether we change the circumstances to suit our needs.

Just watched 10,000BC earlier. Quite a good movie, but could have been better if they added more battle scenes... and what was it with the sabretooth tiger? 2 scenes and no more? Do some justice to the big kitty man...

One quote from the movie.

Interpreted it like this.

"Every man builds circles. Some men build circles around their families, some build circles that also include their brothers and sisters. But some men build circles that surround many people."

I guess it's all about the people whom you care for, and for whom you would be there for, to lead, and also to protect them as well...

I'm gonna stop here for now. Feeling totally sick.

By the way, here's another classic song... Sleeping Child by Michael Learns to Rock. Very very old song, but still good on its own. Enjoy.

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Leaky nose, sore throat.

Disappointed.

2008-03-09T03:04:00.002+08:00

Well, I guess that sometimes everyone just goes wrong? Really dunno what to say, what to do... and I have to live with it. Sucks right?

Not very happy with the results... but at least I passed my math.

Can't seem to find the mood to start writing anything now, and I can't find the words either...

Anyway, Friday was a fun day, except you-know-what. Ended up at Sakura with Vincent, Jojo, Jun Yang, Emile and Shan Hui for dinner. Was after an almost hour-long and well-travelled debate, which was as good as a tour of the whole stretch of Orchard Rd all the way towards Plaza Sing. Here WERE the dinner-location ideas, which didn't really quite work out: Secret Recipe, Ajisen, Fish & Co., Manhattan Fish Market, Ichiban Sushi, Sakae Sushi, Cafe Cartel and many many more.

Dinner was good! But we had to rush for the baked shellfish though. One moment they're there, the next, gone! The ever-so-nice ladies in front of me took like 3-quarters of the tray of baked oysters, and mussels, and scallops.

Two things I've learnt though. First, never never, and I mean NEVER ever play Zong Ji Mi Ma at a BUFFET RESTAURANT. After a while, the forfeits just keep getting worse. Secondly, there really is retribution.

I decided on a plate of fried rice + 2 lemons + fruit salad + sushi as one of the forfeits. Guess who ate it up? ME.

Not as bad as Jojo though. Try CLAYPOT LAKSA.

Vince puked. Was it an ugly sight? Don't ask me. Wasn't there.

The stupidest thing I did that day was to leave the whole pile of Uni stuff at Emile's place. The walk to his place from the MRT station took FOREVER. Had to cab home. Cost me $10. Wasted.

Still no photos... haha.

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Dejected?

Haiz

2008-03-07T09:55:00.002+08:00

'A's later. AND I'M HOME NOW!!! LOL! Ecstatic? Not quite.

I don't even feel quite right now.

Stupidly.

Well, at least I've got another long weekend off... THANK GOD! Has been an event-less week at camp. Booorrrrrriiiiinnnngggg.

Bwah. Will write more later. Here's another song for y'all to enjoy!

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Stressed.

You.

2008-03-03T00:44:00.003+08:00

Every cloud has a silver lining.
Every problem has a solution.

Doesn't matter how we look at it. All that matters is whether we want to put in the effort to make the commitment to look for the solution.

It has been a great week so far. Have been really blessed, but I can't help but wonder how some things just keep evolving over time.

It's true. Things change over time. But some changes just can't be comprehended... I still get that sinking feeling sometimes, maybe I'm still thinking too much? Hmm...

Anyway.

Faithfulness, Fruitfulness, Faith.

3 things towards success and prosperity. It's just that simple. No matter what situation we face.

ESPECIALLY WITH THE TALENTS THAT WE'RE BLESSED WITH!

Personally, I really don't care how talented you are. The most important thing is whether you've put in the effort to develop your talent, and making full use of it to bring yourself and others to greater levels.

You're unique and special.

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Joy.

If I Had Eyes - Jack Johnson

2008-02-26T13:22:00.004+08:00

We are fortunate to have the gift of sight, but sometimes we just don't focus on the important things in our lives, especially the people.

Hope this song would spread this message to everyone out there.

Enjoy.

If I Had Eyes - Jack Johnson, Sleep Through the Static

If I had eyes in the back of my head,
I would’ve told you that you look good as I walked away.
If you could’ve tried to trust the hand that fed,
You would’ve never been hungry but you’d never really be.
More of this or less of this or is there any difference
Or are we are we just holdin on to things that we don’t have anymore.

Sometimes time doesn’t heal, no, not at all.
Just stands still, while we fall
In or out of love again
I doubt I’m gonna win you back
when you’ve got eyes like that
they won’t let me in.

Always lookin out.
Ooooh ooh ohooh

A lot of people spent their time just floating
We were victims together but lonely
You’ve got hungry eyes they just cant look forward
Cant give them enough but we just cant start over
Building with thin nails
We’re falling but holding
I don’t wanna take up anymore of your time

Time time time sometimes

Time doesn’t heal, no, not at all.
Just stands still, while we fall
In or out of love again
I doubt I’m gonna win you back
When you’ve got eyes like that
They wont let me in

Always looking out.
Oooh oohhhoo ooh
Always lookin
Ohoohoooo
Always lookin … out.
Ooohooohooo
Always lookin … out…